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Seventeen candles on the 28th September '09. I ♥ cocktails, cocaine, and clubbing.

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at 9:27 PM

it's funny how my sister just blogged about how much she misses school. bcos as for me, i really DON'T miss it. hwachong, of course. besides meeting some nice people, that place has given me nothing but heartache and stress. i know i didn't put in as much effort as i should have, but i know that even if i study my hardest, i still won't be able to do well. maybe i'm just not smart enough. touch luck eh? but whatever la. i've just made up my mind to erase hwachong completely from my mind. if people ask me which jc i went to, i'll just say i went straight from crescent to otago. those 3 years spent in that shithole will just be some void in my life which will always remain a blank. even if i become successful next time, i won't say i'm from hwachong. i won't give that place the glory of highlighting the fact that i graduated from there in the newspaper interview.

oh yes. i remember i still have to go back and give some teachers the finger.


at 8:08 PM

i wish i could write like my sister. :(

i know everyone is different and we all have our own writing styles and techniques,but i like meimei's one. :(((( oh gosh i sound so childish. somehow she always picks out the little tiny details and uses all the right words to describe them so explicitly. *pouts*

anyway........ i don't know why i'm blogging. i suppose........ i don't know what i suppose. *inhales deeply* okok.....focus....

today was the first day of school back after mid-sem break. we had 10 days holiday altogether due to easter friday. the holiday was supposed to be a working holiday because after the break is where we have our tests for the 3 sciences. the most productive thing i did was to finish ALL my physics tutorials nicely in an exercise book. honestly, i don't think it actually takes 1 week to do but aiya! i hate myself la. sometimes i don't know whether i like holidays or not. when its school time, i wish for holiday so i can do a whole day of revision. but when it's holiday, i laze around and don't do as much as i CAN. sis if you are reading this, or anyone who is going away to study, THE DISCIPLINE NEEDED TO ACTUALLY SIT DOWN AND STUDY IS TREMENDOUS. ESPECIALLY WITH NO PARENTS AROUND. seriously. even if there's nothing to do, you will find SOMETHING to do other than study. u would even choose to watch paint dry over opening your books. i'm sooooo behind making bio notes. sigh! the only thing that keeps me going is that my folks are working so hard to send me here, so it's my only source of motivation. but seriously. i don't know where a lot of my time goes. i usually end school like 3,4 plus in the afternoon, watch 2 hours of TV from 5-7pm, and then i'm free to do revision. i think i move to slowly. and dilly-dally. oh lord please help my limbs to move faster! :((((

we celebrated my friend caleb's birthday today. he turned 18, so instead of buying him a cake, we bought him 18 doughnuts. :D and all the donuts were of different flavour, and we put a candle on each of them. omg the outcome with the many colors and the lighted candles were soooooo pretty!!!! seriously. everyone always has birthday cakes. try birthday doughnuts. they're more unique and they stand out. sis, shall we get dad 50 doughnuts for his birthday? :D the best part was he's the only guy among the girls i hang out with. so he's the only guy out of 9 girls, so he basically had 9 girls all to himself to celebrate his birthday for him! sooooo sexayyy i tell u. :P if other guys knew they'd be so jealous. :P

so after the party broke up and some people left, one closer friend of mine opened up to the rest of us who were sill around that she actually smokes. and she's 1 year my junior, so sis' age, and i was pretty shocked cos i never expected it. she said she started smoking last year and used to smoke half a pack a day for fun. and now she's quarreling with her bf and parents so she uses it to relieve stress. while telling us this she got pretty emo and said, "man. i actually feel like a puff now." i don't know why but that scared me so much. i suppose..... destroying your body so young is not exactly something i approve of. especially if you're a teenager. i think i have double standards here but i think i'll be more forgiving if she was in her 20s and NOT younger than me, but thats the way i feel.

which leads me to think how important family upbringing is. for me, i'm legal, but i don't smoke, i don't drink, i don't club, i don't sleep around and i attend all my classes. i don't go wild just because i have the freedom. i behave here exactly the same way as i do back home. and just bcos i don't do those stuff doesn't mean i'm boring or i don't have fun. i think what scares me the most is that if i have kids next time and they disappoint me the way young adults behave, ie. all of the above and more. i don't know why people like to drink until they get drunk and then throw up and behave like idiots. they think it's cool? man they are SO disillusioned. like, don't they know what they're doing to their liver? i know it's mean but when i see and hear about people like that, i silently pray that one day they will have liver cancer and suffer all the pain and shit that cancer patients have to go through. especially compared to innocent kids who are born with the disease, these morons actually abuse their healthy bodies willingly.

oh. fyi. my english teacher told me the definition of a moron is: a person with the intelligence of a vegetable.

yep. sorry this post isn't supposed to be as emo as it turned out to be. i just can't keep my emotions from running high when it comes to certain issues. shit it's late. better go catch some sleep.