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at 12:16 AM

i just took an IQ test on facebook, and i got a score of 128. i think it should be pretty accurate cos they had time limits and all. apparently theres a harder one for a more accurate result. but i shan't take it now. my brain is too tired. i got 23/30 questions correct! amazing! i was laughing like a hyena. i always thought my IQ was so low i was retarded, cos i take a long time to learn things. but they said anything above 110 is above average. *roars with laughter* well done ph, well done. :P

sis is so obssessed with rob pattinson its scary. and this is my sister!! she's the tomboy!! going gaga over rob was supposed to be MY job!!! and im not even half as bothered as she is. i mean, sure i love him a lot, but she's like wayyy over the top. reading and watching his interviews, getting his autograph etc etc. im too lazy for all that. and to think that 3 years ago, she was SCOFFING at ME for fawning all over him as cedric diggory. seriously. she totally dismissed him man. and now, edward cullen/rob pattinson is God. *rolls eyes*


at 11:32 AM

happy boxing day.

yup. thats it. no upper case font, no color, no exclamation mark. just plain black and white with a fullstop. i used to think boxing day was a day for people to throw punches at each other. why else call it that eh? to collect all the boxes that came with your xmas presents? :S

seriously, my xmas holiday is no xmas AT ALL. no turkey, no pudding, no turkish delight. oh we have a log cake. but its tiny, and its free. cos the folks are VIP customers at GNC so they get a free mini log cake from breadtalk. -_-''' pathetic i know. i duno who's gona bother eating it. yesterday for lunch, you'd think we had something western, like fish and chips? steak? potatoes? NO. we had INDONESIAN FOOD. bah. thats as far from xmas as it possibly gets man. do they even celebrate xmas in indonesia??!! dinner was just a simple affair with salad and fried porridge. yes, you read it right. it's not a typo. fried PORRIDGE. apparently mum had lots of porridge left over. so instead of frying rice, umm..... it became fried porridge. and she complained that the more she fried it, the more mushy is became. okok, it wasnt that bad. still pretty edible. but no way is it gona qualify as a xmas dinner.

so we're meeting darren later for lunch. i really wish mum would tell me these things earlier. today was supposed to be our shopping trip!! i actually planned to leave the house by 10.30am to beat the lunch time crowd, but its not 11.39pm and we haven't left yet. i bet mum isn't even changed. sigh!

sis and i were watching this show on discovery home and living about this couple with 8 kids. and the kids are a pair of twins and 6 mulitples. i duno how to call 6 babies born at one time. quintuplets are 5, and thats the max i know. (did i spell it right? :S) omg they are sooooo cute!! its shows like this that really makes u wana have babies. adorable things. singapore should show more stuff like this. they want more babies yea? this should do the trick. oh but then again, no thanks. orchard road is already too crowded for my liking.


at 10:04 PM

im in the process of revamping my closet. and the theme is: girly. i know i may seem girly enough to yingxy, but ive been slacking off waaaayyy too much on dress sense recently. im literally reduced to tshirts and shorts/jeans. and i shake my head when i see people in town dressed do sub-standardly. im a hypocrite, i know. SO! im gona take advantage of the sales going on now. OH MY GOD THE SALES ARE SO GOOD YOU HAVE NO IDEA. bcos of the wonderful discounts, sis and i went a bit crazy at Fox and Ralph Lauren. mind you, we would never have been able to do this during normal times. so many good savings!!! so now until CNY im gona hunt for nice tops and dresses, and start dressing like a young lady would, instead of those HDB aunties. mum and dad would be so proud of me.

which brings me to another point to add. HELLO!!! SINGAPORE IS SUPPOSED TO BE IN RECESSION PEOPLE!! SHOULDN'T U GUYS BE STAYING AT HOME AND SAVING??!!!! GEEZ!!! orchard road has been sooooooo crowded these days, its crazy. it feels so uncomfortable to be jostling with the crowd. normally i wouldnt mind a bit of crowd, but this is too much.

and i will never understand why people like to take pictures with christmas trees. its freaking singapore for crying out loud. its so lame. ugh! like they've never seen anything better. -_-'''


at 10:42 PM

chasing your dreams is a very tiring thing to do. it is physically and emotionally draining. and not to mention shit scary too. cos the more unrealistic your dreams are, the more you want it, and the harder the fall if you don't suceed. but then again, i can't give up without a fight. i don't want to live my entire life wondering "what if........" then on the other side of the coin, you worry that chasing your dreams may be the worst possible option ever, cos in the process, you fuck yourself up even worse. i wish someone would give me a sign, or a miracle.

i'm exhausted. emotionally. i think ive had too much information in 1 day. i feel that there's so much building inside of me that wants to explode - and i can't talk to anyone about it. i feel like i can't breathe. ughh....


at 11:29 AM

I CAN'T BELIEVE IT'S ALREADY THE 21ST OF DECEMBER!!! school is starting soon!! argh fuck fuck fuck!!!! i don't want school! i don't want exams and tests!! i don't want homework!! i don't want Alevels!!!! arggghhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *bangs head against wall*

i feel like im embarking on the most important journey of my life. cos this is the exam that makes or breaks me. it totally decides my future. oh god im so scared!! gota start studying liao. seesh i hate this feeling of dread and fear. why can't i move to the UK and do Alevels that are shit easy? its not fair that we have to study our asses of here. what will we even use next time man?! annoying shit.

so ive just had my 2nd sleepover in 4 days. i am officially sleep deprived. i had no sleepover the entire year and now i have 2 in less than a week. it's crazy. i need zzzzz time. badly.

xmas will be here in a few days. i miss how the whole family used to get together and receive presents. now it's just gona be like another holiday where we go out for lunch then watch a movie. what a merry merry christmas.


at 5:56 PM

im gona be hypocritical here, so please bear with me.

currently, the entire world is being engulfed in the Twilight fever. and now when i log on to MSN, all i can see is edward cullen's name. seriously. as much as i'm a culprit of exclaiming my love for -fill in the blank- to my sis or yingx, it always weirds me out when i see people do that on their msn nick. i can't describe it. just can't wrap my head around it.

sis is currently obsessed with classical music. she spends HOURS on the piano playing all these weird pieces, and songs coming out of her ipod is classical too. irritating me to death man.

miao qun is sleeping over tmr night! i can't wait! :D


at 9:59 PM

2nd post for the day. scroll down for the 1st one. and scroll down more for my twilight review if you haven't read it. :)

so i really need to stop using my bio homework as a coaster for my cups, and actually get my ass down to DOING IT!! okok, tmr i'll start. i swear.

i just finished reading "Midnight Sun", whatever steph meyer put up anyway. so the conclusion is that she'll NEVER publish it. i mean, she's already let out 264 pages of the book. no point releasing the book when everyone already knows half the story. oh, but of cos she can if she wants cos the fans will still lap it up and her bank account goes ka-ching again, but as an author, i don't think she thinks like that. she's already rich enough with all the hype and movies and sales blah blah......

so now we finally got a new director for "New Moon". let's hope he makes it better than twilight. JUST STICK TO THE BOOK MAN!!!! im really sad about the fate of "Midnight Sun". just fuck the god damn person who leaked it online to hell. really. i hope you errrr....... jump off a cliff or something. no that's too good a fate. wait till those crazy twilight fans get their hands on you. you'll get hung, drawn and quatered for sure. ggrrrrrr!!!! anyway, i really enjoyed her writing, and it's ABSOLUTELY BIZARRE reading twlight from edward's perspective. i would never have imagined it in a million years. steph meyer is a freaking GENIUS. someone give the woman a nobel prize.

OH OH OH!!!! theres this page on steph meyer's website where she shows the pictures of cars that she talks about in the book. i swear i nearly CRIED when i saw Edward's Ashton Martin. i want it so bad i want to rip my hair out. OMG THIS IS THE REASON I HAVE TO GET OUT OF SINGAPORE. you'll look like an idiot driving this around. the car is not fully appreciated when all the speed limits and speed cameras. i must find a place where they have MINIMUM speed limits. like Germany. yea, that'll be fun.

i must say that the twilight saga is very good at providing good vocabulary. i only started paying attention to the words steph uses at the last 2 or 3 chapters or so in "Midnight Sun", and now ive got 3 post-it notes full of new words. im going back to the beginning to hunt for more. it's a nice way of expanding my shamefully limited vocabulary. i have this strange fetish for bombastic words. they make me feel very sexy. ;P AHAHAAHAHAAHAHAHAAH!!!!!! XD who says only Edward Cullen is a good turn on? :)


at 3:15 PM

i just made an interesting observation today. you know if u keep spraying perfume at one place on ure body, eg. ure armpits, even after u bathe and stuff, the smell still kinda sticks to your skin. of cos u must have been spraying and using that perfume for a substantial period of time. maybe like a month? yea. so now my pits smell like my Dolce and Gabanna perfume, though i didn't apply any today. hardyharhar. :P

oh. BRITNEY'S BACK BITCH!!! haha....... i can't say i was ever a huge britney fan. though i have her 1st 3 Cds....... but im currently hooked on "Circus". can't say the same about "Womanizer", but i'm sure if i force myself to listen to it enough times, it'll grow on me. just like i did for miley cyrus' "7 things". i find it so amusing how much whatthebuck on youtube disses and makes fun of miley cyrus. it's absolutely hilarious. :P

so im reading "new moon" for the errr...... hundredth time i think? im definately a bigger twilight fan than harry potter. leah clearwater is fast becoming one of my favourite characters. it's weird cos she's only a calafare, and her part is kinda underwritten. don't blame steph meyer though. there's enough drama among bella, edward and jacob. but i feel it would be really interesting if we knew more about leah and sam and their past blah blah. maybe meyer can do another series. the twilight saga gives too much time to the cullens. maybe write another book series from the quileute's point of view. :D oh, of cos please finish "Midnight sun" first. but since it is being putoff indefinately......hmm.......


at 7:52 PM

today's topic:




haha.... cool eh. so since my sis has provided her views on the twilight movie, i feel that i should do the same! so.......let's go!

let's start from the beginning. so the movie starts with bella (kristin stewart) in a deserty-like place, which is supposedly Phoenix, Arizona and she's heading down to Forks, Washington to stay with Charlie, her dad. blah blah blah......fastforwarding to school, where bella is the new kid. this asian dude comes up to her and wants to put her on the front cover of the school newspaper, and he's supposedly Eric. was eric supposed to be asian????? *bewildered look* then we see bella playing volleyball, which purpose is to show how lousy she is in sports. i suppose the point comes across...... abit..... then we see mike newton. nice enough kid. then jessica. not a bad choice for jessica, but she's supposed to be pretty bitchy. not seen in the movie enough. following that, is the moment EVERYONE IS WAITING FOR: EDWARD CULLEN aka rob pattinson. i duno if people are excited to see the CHARACTER edward or rob. i think it's both. anyway, the cullen siblings come onscreen. and let's say cathering hardwicke knows how to build up the climax. rosalie and emmett enter the cafeteria first, then alice and jasper. then finally, *drumroll* EDWARD ENTERS!!! and the whole cinema gets a little excited. :P (this para is getting a little long......)

right. so on to biology class. bella enters the room, and edward literally wants to throw up. of cos we know he's not sick but just wants her blood so badly, but he looked sick. i thought he was supposed to grip the table and lean away from her, sit at the edge of his side of the table. i think rob overdid a bit on the whole feeling sick thing. bell rings, then he immediately rushes out of the room. check. bella enters the receptionist's office and sees edward trying desperately to change classes. check. moving on. the next few days edward is absent from school, and when he finally comes back he introduces himself, and then he and bella start identifying the process of mitosis. (Blah, i hate the topic of cell division) then comes the pivotal scene of edward saving bella from the car accident. super cool man omg. so bella gets taken to the hospital, and in breezes Carlisle Cullen. and the cinema goes a little wild too, his entrance as well accepted as edward's. but i must say he's pretty cool. very pale, very blond, very doctorish, but i won't say strikingly handsome as i wanted him to be. all the nurses are supposed to fall for him. but ahh....well....i can still live with his casting.

next. school trip, which isnt' in the book but is vital in the film, and it got steph meyer's approval, so what more can i say. bella questions edward on how he got to her so fast, and he says: "it's called adreneline rush. google it." OMG I CAN'T BELIEVE HE ACTUALLY SAID "GOOGLE IT." firstly cos it's not in the book, but it seemed pretty out of place. next scene is in the caf again, and bella says edward's moodswings is giving her whiplash. and that line is also not in the book FYI. she invites him to La Push beach, where she meets jacob again and she googles and reads stuff and finally it dawns on her that edward is a vampire. whoopdedoo. like what jacob said is not obvious enough.

scanning through........comes the part where she goes into the woods and he follows her and he admits being a vampire. goes into the sunlight and dazzles and all......blah blah.....meet the parents next. it was really quite funny, cos the cullens were cooking italian food for her. and emmett said it's italian for her cos her name is bella. LOL. we see that rosalie is hostile towards bella, check. alice and jasper come in. alice is sweet as usual, and jasper has like this constantly shocked look on his face. SUPER UBER ADORABLE. then comes the baseball scene, WHICH IS THE COOLEST AND MY FAVOURITE PART IN THE WHOLE MOVIE!!!! vampire baseball is the best. :) then james, victoria and laurent shows up and the rest of the show is basically, saving bella from james. then it ends with prom......which errrr....... bella went quite willingly to though she was supposed to kick up a huge fuss. and then the movie ends with victoria looking at edward and bella dancing, letting the audience know that the story has just barely started.

whew!!! this is one big spoiler man. of cos i left out some parts, but now comes the time to critique.

1. casting. a huge big thumbs up and 5 stars for rob pattinson being edward cullen. i swear he's born to play edward. i really really like the other cullen siblings too. contrary to what sis says, i think nikki reed is smokin' hot. she's perfect for rosalie. i really really love kellan lutz as emmett too. carlisle is pretty acceptable, charlie ok, billy ok, OMG I LOVE TAYLOR LAUTNER AS JACOB BLACK. Whoooooo!!!~~~~ now let me complain about esme and bella. i felt esme was waaaayyy too old, and she's nowhere pretty enough. maybe she should change her makeup or something. and kristen stewart. my my where do i start. as much as she is my favourite actress in the whole world, SHE IS NOT A GOOD CHOICE FOR BELLA SWAN. i know bella isn't supposed to be miss happy-always-smiling kinda girl, but she isn't ms grumpy either!!!! omg, i swear i can count with the fingers with one hand the number of times she smiles.

2. location and music. excellent work for the location and scenery. i suppose the olympic mountain range can always be counted on to be breathtaking. music was really good too. i have Paramore's 'Decode' perpetually on repeat, and i'm currently listening to the soundtrack now. it just finished spinning for the 1st time, and now it's on for the 2nd consecutive time. so yea, it's pretty awesome.

3. the script. OH. MY. GOD. storyline wise, i really hate to say this but it's a huge, huge letdown. i don't think it stuck to the book close enough!! all it provides is the looming feeling overhead that the stuff that happens is somewhat similar to the book. keyword is somewhat. i felt there were waaayyyyy too many redundant scenes!! and that wastes alot of screen time which could actually be used for parts that belong in the book. i hate that so many parts are edited or twisted around from what is supposed to happen. like when mike asked bella to the spring dance in the book. in the movie, he asked her to prom (they totally ignored the spring dance) and she turned him down saying that she's going to jacksonville. she's supposed to go to freaking Seattle!!!! ARGH!!!! and she supposed to run away from alice and jasper from the airport, not from a hotel. -_-''' yea. so here's 2 examples. shan't go on anymore or i'll have to rewrite the whole script myself.

overall, i have to say the movie is just a tad bit disappointing, and the thing that saves it is the eye-candy cast and the anticipation for the film and my love for the book. i know a film is always hard to make, and that you can't squeeze EVERYTHING in, but they could have done loads better. seesh. i should just give up dentistry and do scriptwriting and directing. i'll direct "Breaking Dawn"!!!! :P haha...... so i'll give them 3.5 stars. nonetheless, i must encourage EVERYONE to go see the movie, read the book, blah blah..... anything that would make u a twilight fan. :) i'll definately buy the DVD, 2 disc special edition no less, so for those times i feel sad and down i'll just look at rob's lovely face and i'll feel all better. :P

i read the new paper today, and they said the rob is the current "It" boy at the moment. yes yes, no contest there. but i can't WAIT for "New Moon" to come out, where edward is absent for like 3/4 of the book. and it's JACOB BLACK ALL THE WAAAYYYY!!!~~~~~~ yea i love taylor lautner. :D:D:D i bet when "new moon" comes out, taylor will be the NEW "It" boy. i KNOW it. REMEMBER YOU HEARD IT HERE FIRST!! XDXDXD


at 12:08 PM

i have decided that i won't attend prom. i see loads of prom photos online, and im disgusted. why? cos everyone looks the same. of cos not literally, but there's no oomph factor. everyone just goes shopping, dresses up to the nines (or attempts to anyway), camwhore, eat, and then sleepover in the hotel or something. ugh. bo-ring. what happened to all the wild parties and crazy stuff that's supposed to happen? aren't you supposed to do something big and really memorable so that u'll remember this night for the rest of your life? apparently not. the moment A levels are over, give or take a week or 2, im gona fly off and join yingxy in canada. sounds like a whole better use of my time.


at 10:19 PM

second post. scroll down for the 1st one.

so i disappear for like, 2 weeks, and today im blogging 2 posts in a day. wow. im fantastic.

i just finished watching "In the land of women", a very artsy film which i think u have to be a lit person to actually enjoy and understand it thoroughly, but what i can say is that it has officially sealed Kristen Stewart as my favourite actress of all time. superficial stuff aside, i duno what about the film, perhaps its very erm.......moody mood...... but i think i may be having a mid-life crisis. odd. cos it's pretty weird to be having one at 18. so im gona die at 36?? lol

im scared. and im tired. im tired of being, or trying to be, or become, something that i don't really wanna do. do i really want to take dentistry and stare into people's mouths for the rest of my life? or do i just follow my heart and shatter my parents' hopes and dreams for me? i don't know. but i do know this.

I WANT TO FUCKING LIVE, GOD DAMN IT.

Live. as in not just breathe to fill my lungs so i don't get brain damage, but i want to be ME. which is pretty crazy cos who else can you be right? but it turns out that finding yourself is much harder than it seems. im sick of living in a rut. im sick of having to conform to society that i must get good results or im a loser. im sick of the way i have been wearing my hair for so long, my line parting is dead. it doesn't even change when i bathe and blow my hair. it just freaking falls back into place like a routine. im sick of being lost, cos i can't find the real me. and thats bad cos when uni applications start, especially for the US unis, they are gona ask u to write an essay about yourself. which is fantastic, bcos NEWSFLASH, I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHO I AM!!!!

and the worst part is?? is that im too fucking scared to change. and i FUCKING HATE THAT. I hate that i have no courage to LIVE, even though it's what i want the most. HOW do u live anyway? screw it even i don't know the answer. damn it i have feeling ive just come full circle.

i should be an actress. those theatre-types tend to let their emotions run pretty wild.


at 10:25 AM

nowadays when i go to facebook, people i know are always being tagged in prom photos. which gives me a pretty good reality check that my friends have all moved on without me. sure, i say that im a 'special' case cos i have 2 classes instead of one, twice as many friends blah blah...... even though i really wish that i could just turn back the clock so badly and redo all my mistakes. im not saying my new class is bad. they're not. and there are some really decent people there. im just missing the way things could have been, which is kinda crazy cos u can't miss things u don't know right? wrong. cos sometimes u just do.

right. so this is supposed to be yesterday's post, but obviously i was too lazy to type this 24 hours ago. mum went for her haircut and insisted i go along, though i have absolutely nothing to do while bits of keratin on her head gets snipped off. so i decided to go for a movie at 12pm. mum's appointment was at 12pm too. so just nice. i'll drop her off at holland v then drive to great world city. turns out, mum being mum, she dragged her time so we ended up leaving the house late. so i literally had to drive like a crazy woman from Holland v to GWC, considering i wasn't exactly sure of the route, in 10 mins. luckily i did remember the route, but by the time i parked and everything: 12.03pm. raced from the carpark to the cinema, only to find that there was only 1 freaking counter open. -_-''' nvm. not the worst part yet. there was this grandma at the counter when i arrived, and she was there for like, 5 whole minutes or more???!!!! i was like, DUDE!!! DO U MIND??!!!! my show is at 12pm, it's already pass 12, and i don't have my ticket yet. what the hell is wrong with u?? choose a godamn movie, pick seats, pay, and GO!!!! i swear i nearly got a heartattack. you know, it's not that im mean and cannot stand old people, but the way they move and work sometimes, DRIVES. ME. INSANE. i tell u, if old people ever took over mcdonald's, it'll be slow food, not fast food.

finally when old grandma here moved her slow ass away, there were 2 more people ahead of me. thank god they didn't take as long. if not, someone's ass was gona get kicked real bad. when i got my ticket ( in less that 2 mins i must add) and ran to the theatre, OLD GRANDMA HAD JUST GOTTEN HER TICKET TORN AND WAS JUST WALKING UP THE STAIRS. seriously, i was shocked. it should be a crime for people who move so slow. ok, im NOT being mean. she wasn't like, u know, ancient. probably in her 60s? she wasn't like wrinkly and totally cannot see, hobbling all the way kind of all. i bet she's capable of walking at a humane speed. but nooooo. whoa lao i nearly burst a vein.

i finally got to the theatre, thinking i must have missed the first 10 minutes of the show already, but it hadn't even started yet!!! i wanted to whooop with joy!! so my main purpose of this post is: THANK GOD FOR COMMERCIALS!!!! :D:D:D i also managed to catch the twilight trailer, which i have seen a million times and practically memorised it. so all was good. if i missed my show, grandma is gona be real sorry.

i'm gona start homework today. and even the thought of it is excruciating. i know that next year is the make it or break it year, and i'm sure everyone in sch has started cos they're all freaks when it comes to academics. so must really pull up my socks and..... start....... :(