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at 9:51 PM

i think growing up is a very exciting and interesting process. besides the aging process; that's just not cool. what i like about it is when people grow up and change, and we each go on our individual life journeys. for me, i'm just overwhelmed by where my friends are now. who would have guessed that the cheeky, naughty boy from kindergarten would someday make it to oxford? and then there's the smallest girl in my p6 class. i can still remember her telling me clearly that she was aiming to go to nygh after PSLE. and yes, i see her small frame so vividly in my mind. well, she's not that small anymore; almost my height and on her way to LSE. and then my lil bro, whom we all affectionately know as weishi. :) i recall we went to genting together for our NYPSCO competition. we and my sister played in the hotel room while our mothers were down in the casino gambling. he was all small and innocent looking, with a really cute voice i'd never forget. now, that voice is no longer sweet, but deeper. he towers over me. and he topped hc and is probably going to do medicine. who would have guessed. to me they were just my friends, my classmates. now we are on the brink of adulthood. go on to facebook and you see universities as people's networks. i always thought uni was a distant dream, now it's lingering at my doorstep. before i know it, we would graduate, and out into the corporate world we go. i wonder what it would be like when i meet or recognise my friends on the street 6,7 years from now. who would be married? have kids?? oh my........ it's a strange thought; thinking of your primary school friends being pregnant or becoming dads.....*shudders* cos in my mind, they would always be that little boy/girl. and when their kids are naughty, i wonder if they would see how naughty they were too when they were young, and see themselves in their children. sigh! time passes too fast. i don't think i'm ready to grow up yet.

and to spoil my mood, respiration and hydroxy tutorials are due tmr. WHAT ARE THE TEACHERS CRAZY??!!! blocks just ended!!!! at least give us a week to do it! seesh!!!!


at 3:33 PM

my parents really know how to ruin my dreams. i was supposed to go for auditions for Project UP today, a performing arts group, but i didnt go bcos they were unhappy. no, actually i didn't go cos i have exams tmr. if i didn't i would totally just heck care them and go man. then of cos, my dad took it upon himself to nag me and give me a lecture on how studies are important, LIKE HE HAS BEEN DOING EVER SINCE I STARTED PRIMARY SCHOOL. he said i didn't even win talentime and i should just give up singing and treat it as a hobby, and not a career. the thing i hate about my parents, is that they don't LISTEN. they clean their ears everyday but i don't think there's any differnece. they might as well have earwax as ears. when on earth did i ever say i want to have a career in singing?! do they think i'm that naive?! of cos i DON'T want a career in singing!!! i KNOW i'm not good enough! geez!! how big do you think my ego is? i merely say i want to go audition and they equate it to making singing my career. god. i don't know whether they're stupid or dumb.

and the worst thing about my dad's nagging is, he likes to show off. yes, show off. he likes to show me that he knows the names of britney spears and lindsay lohan. and the worst thing, he doesn't even pronounce their names RIGHT!!!! ugh!! everytime i hear it i feel a huge twinge of irritation. like, DON'T come and show off to me you know all these celebrities when I am the one who is Queen of Gossip. i'm not proud of it, but you get my point. i bet he doesn't know who natasha richardson or chris brown is until they came into the news recently. arrgghh. pissed off man. this is NOT how u treat a birthday girl man. and they didn't even wish me happy birthday. neither did lou. i'm pretty sure she forgot. and for that, i'm 'breaking up' with her.

in the new paper today, there's this article about "singapore's edison chen". i seriously have not come across a more RETARDED HUMAN BEING. and then there's news about sex tapes, and "sexting", this new thing which is people sending to their gf/bf racy photos of themselves and then when they break up, their ex spreads it around. and a girl hung herself bcos her ex-bf sent her photos to the entire school. these people are the epitome of stupid. i mean, MUST u film ureself having sex or naked?!! MUST, MUST YOU???!!! u mean ure only going to have sex once in ure life so u must record it and watch it over and over again?? and if u really want to see yourself nude, for goodness sake just strip and stand in front of the mirror. u can stare as long as you like. seriously man. i don't know where these people get their brains from. DIDN'T PARIS HILTON TEACH YOU ANYTHING?!! and if u have casual sex, u risk getting filmed or contracting STDs. people are really so dumb that they don't know all these?? seesh?? if you really have to do it, masturbation was invented for a reason man!!!! god.....

what a nice birthday this has been. sometimes i just want to run away and never come back.


at 12:25 AM

birthday to me.

WHAT THE HELL I'M 19 ALREADY??!!!! NOOOOOOO!!!!!!! EDWARD CULLEN BITE ME NOW!!!!!!!!!


at 10:49 PM

i'll be turning 19 in about an hour's time. i've not been looking forward to my birthday this year. no anticipation, no joy, no bated breath, nothing. nada. zilch. i feel old. :((((( i think i'll just kill myself this time next year so i'll stay 19 forever and i don't have to turn 20. bloody hell. being 20 years old...... the mere thought of it is frightening!!!!!

one perk of the day: I GOT MY TWILIGHT DVD!!!! YEAH MANNN!!!!!! haha. i know yingx is gona be real happy when she reads this, but i think the more i look at rob pattinson, the less handsome i think he is. :P:P:P don't get me wrong, he IS gorgeous!! i think if i meet him in person i'd just swoon and faint, but hmmm..... yea..... not AS attracted as i once was i guess. on the other hand however, i love taylor lautner. XDXDXD i kep rewatching the scenes he was in over and over again, and you know since jacob isn't significant in Twilight, i kept rewatching the same 5 minutes of so. ahaahahaha!!!! OMG I CAN'T WAIT FOR NEW MOON TO COME OUT TO OGLE AT TAYLOR'S 6 PECS. :P taylor will be the next big thing, watch my words!! rob would have to take a hike for while until Eclipse.

i will be back in an hour or so to officially wish myself happy birthday. no wait. it's a not a 'happy' birthday. so it's just birthday.


at 11:51 AM

Natasha Richardson has passed away due to a head injury from a ski accident. if you don't know who she is, i scoff at u and say she was in Parent Trap, and more recently, Wild Child.

next, is it confirmed that dakota fanning will be playing Jane in New Moon. and i can't wait to see taylor lautner's new hot body!!!!!! i know i really, REALLY shouldn't be lusting over younger guys like this, but i really can't help myself. :P filming has started on 10 March 2009 and will end in mid-May. Scheduled release is November 20th. why do i have the awful feeling it will be smack in the middle of my Alevels???!!! :((( god damn it.

and yingx. rob pattinson IS masculine!! gosh! ever seen cheekbones like his before??? ahaahahaha!!!!! :P:P:P


at 7:12 PM

my mortal, being one of those "cheenah" people, or at least i assume that, says that she's a big fan of DBSK. (don't scream Naomi) and of cos, me, being my usual sarcastic self, was scoffing at it when i read it in the letter. well, i can't help it if i prefer hollywood. so, in order to pass a fair judgement, i shouldn't pass comments before i see/hear/watch their music and videos right? so i went onto you tube to check it out, and i couldn't even finish watching one full video. i'm sorry it was just too bad. my mortal says they're not only relying on good looks, but they can sing and dance too etc. basically very talented. -_-''' i honestly do not know what to say to that. no wait. i know EXACTLY what to say. but i shan't say it here cos i know it'll break naomi's heart and i love her :)

can someone tell me what on earth is REMOTELY attractive about them? i couldn't find any nice songs, their dancing is...... well it's dancing. all the korean artistes' dance moves are about the same anyway. and their LOOKS??!!! boy oh boy where do i start??? they all look so feminine!! with their long hair, long fringes etc. uggghhh.... i like my men to be masculine looking. i wonder whether they feel sissy when they have to dress up so elaborately.

yep. that's all from me today. till tmr. :)


at 6:18 PM

hey guys! the first post is below. just wanted to say i uploaded 2 more videos. :D enter lphua76 into youtube and u should find them quite easily. enjoy! :)


at 3:47 PM

hey guys!!! i didn't blog after i came home last night cos i wanted to do it properly. last night i was too tired and emotionally drained to do anything else except make use of my bed. :P

right. last night was talentime night!!! it's really weird how time goes by so fast. just yesterday at this time i was practising my song like crazy and shaking with fear. and now it's over. so i didn't win. i'll be lying if i said i wasn't disappointed. cos if i'm good enough to get to the finals, it means that the judges think i have a shot at winning right? well, i gave it my best shot anyway, and i really did try very hard. i have no regrets. and even though it wasn't enough....ahhh well..... this failure won't get me down. i've been through bigger failures than this. i just feel like i've let my parents and friends down a little. hmmm.......

so let me recount my day leading up to my time on stage! and also give u a sneak peek into what was going on inside my head. :P i woke up at 10.30am, cos i was too tired to obey mu alarm clock. so i missed my yoga session. :( nvm. went to the salon at 11.45am to get my hair washed ans straightened and had lunch. they told us to be in school by 1pm but i reached at 1.40pm, and they hadn't started rehearsals yet!!! luckily i wasn't on time man. i would be bored out of my mind. so rehearsals finally started and we watched the band and vocal groups perform, and then i had to go change cos people were really bugging me to change. i wanted to put off wearing my costume till as late as possible. :P finally it was my turn and i did my stuff before going t my vocal teacher's house across the road at 5pm. did some warming up and singing for 45mins or so, then headed back down to school for xiaochun to do my makeup at 6pm. she must have spent an hour or so doing my makeup cos by the time i was done i was receiving phone calls and people were starting to get seated.

when u dread something, time seems to pass extra fast. all the group and band performances seemed to fly by, and as much as i wanted to stand in the wings and watch them, i knew i had to listen to my song for the last few times i could. and i got loads of encouraging smses, especially from jiachen who said i chose a song that jiawei really liked! so even more pressure!! :P then it was intermission, and i really started shaking cos i was the 2nd singer after the break. i tell u, it was the shortest 20 mins of my life. there was a dance number, then waiyee went up. i was on standby in the wings, i had to sit down and close my eyes and breathe. then i started singing to myself. i think i must have looked really weird to the ava people, but when you're gona put yourself out there in front of a huge crowd, you really don't give a shit. I told Preston not to watch and stay in the basement but he of cos went against my orders and watched me anyway. :P finally wai yee ended, the emcees talked crap, and it was my turn. and you know what, seconds before i was due on stage, I FREAKING FORGOT MY FIRST LINE!!!!!! i was like, HOLY FUCK!!! and i literally wanted to ask the ava people, "what's the lyrics? what's my first line?" but of cos i didn't cos that would be retarded. how on earth would they know?? my head was swimming with words and thank god it finally came to me. people were chattering behind me wishing me good luck, but i didn't care and my ears weren't working properly. then the music played and i was on!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i walked out as i sung, and before i reached the centre of the stage i stopped a few times, cos my legs were shaking so bad. and strangely enough, when i reached the centre, all my fears just melted away. i was freer on stage than i have ever been. and also i told myself that i didn't want to walk off after the song knowing that i didn't do my best. so the song proceeded quite smoothly. the audience cheered after the first chorus so that was very encouraging. and then came the tricky part where the song changed key and i went out of tune. -_-''' damn it i think that cost me my trophy. i saw the audience's faces and i was like "oh fuck." but nvm. it went on, i went back into key, and then came my big belt that lasted for 12 counts. and when the cheering started i was supposed to get louder. according to my teacher at least. i hope i did get louder. but anyway. the song was over, the emcees came out, and i sang the chorus of Shayne Ward's "That's my goal" for my supporters, got the judges comments, (Keely Wee said i have a sweet voice and i'm cute. -_-''') i have no idea how to comment on that. thanks i guess?? the lights came on and holy cow the auditorium WAS full!!!! all the way to back no less. and then i was bouncing off stage and i was done!!!!!! everyone congratulaed me back stage, yang lu seemed extra excited, bless her, :) and i tell u, it's the best feeling in the world. i can't describe it. it goes beyond words. i was hugging and blowing kisses to everyone, and people were saying good job, well done. i revel in adrenaline rushes. :D

very soon it was prize presentation, and ahhh well, like i said, i didn't win. i was really shocked when felisa got 1st runner up though. i thought she would win! anyway, it went to Yan Ming, some china guy. but he's good la. i'll give him that. and Mrs Chin specially came over to shake my hand and hug me. :D we've got some ahh..... history you see. first my retaining, then the infamous tshirt project...... so yea..... we're acquainted. haha!! she said she didn't know i could sing so well!! i was really touched man. then the mingling came and i got flowers from my friends, and my banner which is SO NAOMI. :P:P:P zakiyah said she couldn't find nice flowers so she got me cake and chocolate. :D so here's a picture of my well-wishes from friends.


PEI HUA FEELS VERY LOVED!!!!! :D:D:D

right. so here are some personal thank yous:

Louisa: for telling me and encouraging me to do this in the first place. if not for you, i wouldn't even have taken the first step to hand in the form. and of cos for being the most supportive, (and biased and forgetful) best friend ever. :P

My parents: for being my biggests fans and for giving me my voice. I think i inherited my tone from my dad.

YINGXY: for being my rock though you're halfway round the world. i know that if she was here , she'd be picking all those winners apart on my behalf in her indignant tone. :P i love u babe. :D

Naomi, Shiyun, Jacq, Felicia, Anita, Shing: THANK YOU GUYS FOR COMING DOWN!!!!!! and thanks for the banner!!! extra thanks to naomi and shiyun for rallying support for me and of cos, giving encouragements every step along the way. Couldn't have done it without you!!!! :D

08S72: to those who couldn't come down, i still appreciate your well wishes!! eliz told me that the stage is my world that no one can touch. :D jiamin for trying to get the class to go, (though quite unsuccessfully) and jiawei!!! who has been there all the time when i needed cheering up. and of cos gabe who i miss dearly.

Zakiyah: sweetie pie. i think she and jeremy got quite pissed off at each other, but i thank her for her support.

Miaoqun: my ever crazy friend. she always wishes me good morning in her morning smses and tells me to smile. :)

yep. i think that's about it!! i think this experience has cemented my love-hate relationship with the limelight. as much as i shiver and shake and dread the moment i'm due to go on, i love it up there. somehow. haha!!! but this thing's for sure: you haven't seen the last of me. :D

ohhhh!!!! the best thing about the night was when i was outside the audi and these 2 girls, bella and limin or lingmin came up to me to tell me that they liked my voice cos it was very soothing. i was soooooooo touched an flattered!!!! i think it's the biggest reward for a stranger to come up and tell u stuff like this, cos u know they really mean it. it really is better than any trophy in the world. :D:D:D

one last BIG THANK YOU, HUG AND KISS to all my supporters and friends!!! i wouldn't have been able to do this without any of you!!!! i really feel that "ANGELS BROUGHT ME HERE" to you. :D


at 12:07 AM

well, tmr is the big day. :D i'm just gona do my best and let nature take it's course. fingers crossed!! its absolutely ridiculous how much effort and time i take to practise when i only get 3 minutes on stage man!!! and i've been practising my song for like a week and i'm already sick of it. can't imagine those professional singers. :P poor things.

i had a long day today. firstly i woke up at 10.30am; my mum didn't barge into my room to wake me much to my surprise. i actually did set my alarm to wake up earlier, but i guess i was simply just too tired. then i HAD to wake up cos i had vocal training at noon. finished training at about 1.30pm, then i went for yoga at 2.30pm. and after showering and all, i reached town at about 5pm to shop for my outfit tmr. so i hope you guys like my clothes! :P by the time we were done, it was already 6.45pm. so mum and i made a mad dash from town to junction 8 to catch "slumdog millionaire" at 7.15pm. you should have seen mum and i driving man. i'm luckily i took after her good driving skills. :D and i really must comment about the movie. hmm..... it's scary. not in the horror-ghost way, but scary the way children are being bullied and we get to see the tough life people live in poor countries. i think death is preferable. like they showed that children and being conned by these bad men into being beggars, and they are blinded on purpose so that they can get more pity and earn more money. the literally knock the poor boy out and use some hot metal thing to burn his eye out. it was disgusting omg. and you know what the worst thing is? this stuff actually happens. and worse. i don't even want to think about the girls. it really breaks my heart, and the worst thing is i don't have the power to stop it. so i've decided, that when i grow up, i'm gona adopt a kid from those third world country. doesn't matter if i'm married or single. when i feel the time is right, i'll just go ahead and do it. and if my husband/boyfriend isn't man enough to accept it, then he doesn't deserve me.

for the benefit of those living under a rock, "slumdog millionaire" won 8 oscars, including best movie. errrrr......... i think i must not know the judging criteria, but i don't think it was that great to win the "best picture" award. i mean, it was up against frost/nixon?? milk?? the reader??? and this wins??? ok, so i haven't seen the rest..... but hmmm....... i'm not saying it's a bad show. it really is pretty good!!!!! very humbling and all...... but nvm..... it's just my 2 cents worth. OMG THE LEAD GUY IS SO CUTE LAHHHH!!!!! and he's my age!! :P i never thought much about indian guys, but i think he's really goodlooking!! and the girl..... WHOA LAO EHHH SHE'S SOOOOOOO PRETTY MAN!!!!!! don't say guys, i see her smile i also want to melt. :P and i think they're really good together! got loads of chemistry and all. pity she's 6 years older. but she doesn't look it man! and she's got a fiance. sooo.... yea.... but really damn hot omg.....

right! i think i better go suck on a strepsil or something. and rest early and rest my voice. i'm keeping my fingers crossed!!! :D


at 7:24 PM

wow!! today is such a monumentous day!!!

firstly, THIS IS MY 400TH POST!!!!!!! YAY!!! EVERYBODY POP CHAMPAGNE AND YAM SENG!!! HERE'S TO THE NEXT 400!! :D :D :D i still remember i started this blog 3 years ago after prelims for olevels i think. ok, not very sure, but it's definitely during sec 4. my my have i come a long way. :)

secondly, i am wearing contact lenses while typing this post!! ahahah!! this is another achievement to remember too! i have passing my driving test, and now this! next time when i'm old i can tell my grandkids, "you know ahh..... nainai wore contact lenses once etc etc." of cos they'll prob think i'm siao or going senile or something. :P but you know, it's another life experience! but honestly, i don't think it's very comfortable. it's like there's constantly something in my eye, and i can't open my eyes to the max. which is bad cos i portray a lot of emotions through my eyes. lots and lots of people have been telling me i look better without glasses and i should wear contacts to show off my big eyes. so there! i've tried it, and i don't like it. so it's back to good old spectacles for me!

but i was actually very nervous about putting the lenses on. when the guy put it on for me, i was like "don't poke my eyeball!!" of cos i didn't say it out loud, but i was screaming it in my head, and my heart was beating very fast. then the lens touched my eye, a bit of discomfort and then there was this irritating thing in my eye. and i was like, geez, i thought this was supposed to be comfortable. i think i took pretty long to be comfortable with this, and i thought, i don't care how ugly i look with glasses, i'm never wearing these things again!! but then to motivate myself, i thought of how rob pattinson has to hear those ocher contact lenses for months and months just to play our beloved edward cullen. so bcos he can, i can too!! :D actually not just him la. kristen stewart had to wear brown contacts cos her eyes are green. and the rest of the cullens too.

one last thing. i don't want to sing on saturday anymore. i sound like fucking shit. and its not that i have a sore throat. i don't!! and that's why it's even more infuriating cos i don't know what's wrong!!!!! i sound awful. it's always like this. i sound really good when i start singing a new song, and as i sing it more and more, it gets worse and worse. people say maybe i'm trying to analyse the song more subconsciously, or my voice i adjusting to it more blah blah, but whatever. the bottom line is i sound like crap and i'm gona make a fool of myself on saturday. so if you're reading this and you're going to talentime, PLEASE DON'T GO ANYMORE!!! i don't want to lose face in front of you. i'm gona sound so bad, but you'll still clap for me and people will think ure siao. or i'm just getting sympathy applause. and just to make things clear, i'm not saying this to sound diva-ish or something. like, i've never be the kind who says she will fail the exams and then come back with an A. when i say i suck, I REALLY DO SUCK. god, please give me back my voice by saturday. :(

gp tmr. but who cares? i'm just gona study for econs, which is on thursday.

oh btw, i have one follower for my blog. very flattering thank you, but who are you fantasygirl? naomi is it you????


at 11:08 PM

i'm exhausted. i can't believe i'm here typing this and not going straight to bed. i suppose all this fatigue is due to many late nights and today's long talentime rehearsal. and also alot of emotional stress. :P btw, jon soh does a wacky mainland chinese accent. laugh until my sides hurt man. :P

so today was A LEVEL RESULTS DAY!!!!!! the air was thick with anticipation and nerves. even know, the thought of the scenes that i've seen today gives me that suffocating feeling. and it's not even me getting the results!! i guess it just hits home more cos the people who are affected are actually people i know.

i don't think hc did that well. i don't know. of cos there's the usual imba people, but there seemed to be many people crying. hmmm...... cos they got 3 As instead of 4?? haha.... i think my all friends have done pretty well as a whole. and those who have not done well, ahhh.... what to say. just accept it and walk the path god makes for you. i did and i'm very happy now. :)

right. i think i may actually want to type more initially, but i'm really tired. i can't recall anything i want to say. perhaps i should do this tmr.

btw, THANKS TO EVERYONE FOR WATCHING THE YOUTUBE VIDEO!!! the last time i checked there were 23 views. erm, exactly how many times have you guys seen the video? i don't think i have told 23 people to go see it. -_-'''


at 6:26 PM

hey naomi. yea i read ure blog, and hmmm...... it's very well written. very insightful. i just supeficially read it through, but i think it deserves me taking some time and actually think deeply about it.

to shiyun, naomi and yingx, thank you once again for being there when i need someone. i know u must be all sick of hearing me say thank you, but i'm really trying to express all the gratitude i feel into those 2 words. so bear with me k?

i just finished my final vocal training with the vocal instructor, celine. and, WHO ON EARTH SAID THAT SINGING IS EASY??!! IT IS NOT EASY OK!!! IT'S DAMN FREAKING HARD!!!! she made me repeat and sing the song many times, and she was tough on me. though we were in an aircon room, i actually felt beads of sweat roll down my back. she says i need to switch registers more, have more FEEL, because the way i'm singing now is so monotone that everything sounds the same, and the judges will mark me down very much and basically, it means i'll lose like shit. and since the top prize is already going to that beyonce-like girl, yea, slim chance of winning anything man. so gota be more THEATRICAL, move more, and add more dynamics. ALL AT THE SAME TIME. trust me. it might seem straightforward, but it's NOT. it's freaking hard. now i really see how much effort and time people have to put in to look good for just 3 minutes on stage. omg i need to PRACTISE PRACTISE PRACTISE!!!!!! :((((((

i accidentally found out who my angel is. -_-''' i actually didn't want to find out until the actual day of revelation. i duno why people r so anxious to find out. wheres the fun in that?!! but i found out anyway. cos Preston, my junior, who is also in talentime, left his pencilbox at the vocal training school, and asked me to get it back for him. so i went through his pencilbox, (dude. who can resist the temptaion?? :P) and i saw my letter to my angel inside. so i guess that means, yep, he's my angel. -_-''' Preston of all people. no it's not bad. just unexpected.

lastly, i leave u all with this URL. go check it out. really. i GUARANTEE u won't regret it. :D
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=95WushlIWD8


at 8:38 PM

i just really have to get this off my chest.

talentime is next saturday and my sister isn't going. she doesn't want to go. or even if she does go in the end, she's gona turn up very reluctantly. and that really hurts, because i thought sisters are supposed to be there to support each other. i mean, i thought it was understood. but nope, apparently not for her. i naturally assumed that it would be a shoo in that mum, dad and sis would go and support me. so you could guess the shock i got when she's not willing to go, citing 'a lot of stuff to do and cca coming up' blah blah. something to that extent. i know i may seem very petty here, but if my sister was performing or having a competition in anyway where supporters were allowed to turn up, i would be there in a heartbeat. like i said, i assumed it's understood that you support each other. i see jilly's sister turn up at her squash finals and ares night performance. expect my sis to do this for me? fat hope.

so i asked her if she's attending dramafeste. and she said yes. so i asked, she would rather watch dramafeste than support me? and she goes: "the entertainment value is higher at dramafeste is higher than at talentime." do you know how hurtful that is? she rather go support strangers, (relative to me) and her apollo than support me. and i'm sure she'll go for huangcheng to support her precious norreen. and she says she has no time for me cos she has to study etc. bullshit man. complain have no time but spends so much time on the computer doing god knows what everday. filthy hypocrite man.

and what hurts the most is that it takes my friends over my sister to support me. 6 people from 07S72 are coming to support me, lou is coming, mq is coming. she's even bringing her bf who offered to pay for the tix. (sure, he's trying to leave a good impression, but u get the point). and joyce even asked if i like roses cos she wants to buy. naomi wants to get front row seats so that she can film me and send to yingxy. and i'm sure if yingx is here she'll come watch me too. shame on my sister man. in fact, i'm ashamed to call her that. you know, from the bottom of my heart, if i had a million dollars, i would give some to my parents to pay off the house etc, and then i would use the balance to pay for BOTH my and pei rong's uni education. then save the rest. and if she, pei rong, was in the same situation, i bet she won't even give me a dime. she acts like she's such a big shot all the time in school, that all her friends tolerate her standoffish behavior, and that she's freaking SPECIAL, but actually she's just one self-absorbed bastard who only cares about herself. and her friends.

so even if she decides to go after all, grudgingly of cos bcos my parents force her to go, i still won't forgive her. cos i know that she actually doesn't want to be there. whoever said that blood is thicker than water? bullshit. i'm actually pretty sad to see that sometimes you can't even depend on family. only your parents. can't even count on your own siblings, for crying out loud!!! oh, maybe you can. just that mine is an exception. so i'm not going to do anything extra for her. sometimes i see mum is busy and i volunteer to go fetch her from school. or occasionally when she needs to go to the mrt station i have to fetch her too. sure, she's done some decent stuff for me too, but her actions have just eradicated all her good deeds. so as she says, dramafeste has higher entertainment value. and i say, our singapore public transport system is also very outstanding. don't expect to get anything extra from me next time. cos i'm sure your FRIENDS would be more than willing to help you. you don't need me.