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at 9:48 PM

i'm in an absolute foul mood. man. why couldn't i end the day on a lighter note?

the reason of my anger is this article in The New Paper today. there were 3 british tourists who squeezed onto a trishaw driven by this old man. obviously, the weight of these 3 big men is very heavy for the old trishaw rider. he was panting and struggling very slowly and those 3 bastards were making fun of him in english. of course he didn't understand. they even took a video of the poor man and posted it on youtube! whats worse, they didn't pay the poor old man and just went off in a taxi.

i was so outraged i wanted to cry. i swear, if i ever meet those fucking sons of a bitch, i'll fucking CASTRATE THEM and bash them up so bad they'd wish they had never been born. how dare they bully us singaporeans like that. and a poor, weak senior citizen no less! he hardly earns anything and they dare to cheat him off his money!! oh gosh. i really feel like crying. why on earth does my anger come along with my tears????!!!!!! i didn't ask for this package deal! hmph! i'd sue them for waste of my tears too then. oh gosh i'm pissed, pissed, PISSED!! ARGH!!!!!

my friends were very sweet today. kaiyi messaged me to tell me to come chalet or there's no point in her going. valarie also called to find out how i was and invited me to watch "chitty chitty bang bang" on sunday! i'm so excited! i love my friends! :)

went to shop for kaiyi's and eve's birthday presents today. err......yea, thats about all i did. bo-ring. even i'll fall asleep reading my own autobiography.


at 10:03 PM

seesh yingxy. keep your hair on.

had alevel chinese today. and finally, it's over!!! i really really hope i can get at least a B. it really was a pretty challenging paper. threw me off guard man. hopefully if all goes well, I DON'T HAVE TO TAKE CHINESE ANYMORE FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE! HALELUIA!!!! i can officially become a BANANA! LOL. now i just have to wait for friday for pw to be over too.

oh oh. and before alevel chinese, my friends and i were looking at the boards on the walls outside the hall where they hang all the names of scholars and council presidents blah blah. you know how schools are suckers for this kind of thing. and May told me that one council president actually RETAINED!! HAH! he's our idol man!!! apparently, he's now really successful with a whole range of businesses and retaurants. yea man! thats one up for us retainees!! whoooo!!! and mrs chin says that those who repeat also become very successful and go on to do their phDs. next year by this time, i'm gona be applying for H3. JUST WATCH ME. and just yesterday, there was a success story about an ITE graduate who is now CEO of duno what company, but it's a pretty prominent one la. and if this is the biggest setback in my life, well, then the rest of my years is gona be a bed of roses. :P

more thank yous today:

shiyun- thanks for everything. all your constant words of encouragement and so much more. you're an angel.

sammy- i miss you girl. and thank you for your concern

ning-thanks again. you know how precious a friend you are to me.

well, yea.......thats about my day. I TOLD U ITS BORING. i dont have the privilege of having many guys fight over me like yingxy. :P oh. i've started reading a book called Mao's last dancer. it's my sis' actually, and its really, really good. so if anyone is looking to buy a book, that would be it.

bye then


at 11:13 AM

the worst has happened. and i can't believe it.

i don't think i even feel scared. ok, maybe a little. but it's not the word. more like.........shocked. and devastated. im gona miss my class sooooooo much. i don't know why god does this to me. first, make me leave my ac og, then made me leave ac altogether. now, when i have fallen in love with my class, i have to leave them again. and now, im gona be studying with JUNIORS. and im really gona take alevels with my sis. oh god........

my friends have been really supportive. and im convinced that yixin is much nicer to talk to over msn. not very nice talking to him in person. :P so, i wanna thank:


My parents: who have not scolded me but been my pillar of support, depsite me letting them down so badly

Sis: for always being there and being supportive. and giving me some of her hugs that she's very stingy with

yingx: for calling all the way from canada the moment she got my email. and loving me unconditionally. and telling me that ive not disappointed her

lou: for being my true best friend and sharing my tears. i know she really does feel my pain

weiling: for praying for me, and messaging me constantly to see of im ok. she's like my pillar of strength

yining: for being so sensitive about my msn nick, and also messaging me too to see how i am

zakiyah and bon: for their sweet smses to tell me - friends forever

jac: for willing to help me with my studies

chu xian: for calling many times and offering support

yixin: for wishing me the best in everything i do in the future.




after all my friends' support, (regardless whether they mean it or not) i know some really do, i really feel very loved. like sis, weiling, and yingx tells me, whether i move on or not is all up to me. i shouldn't think about what others think, cos then i would be giving myself more trouble. but i think i need time. time heals everything anyway.........


at 2:33 PM

i think my future looks rather bleak. i really think im gona retain. even though my friends tell me otherwise, i still have no confidence. it's killing me man, this suspense. i trying to brace myself for the worst, picturing the worst case scenario, but you know, you can never really, really prepare for it. cos no matter what you do, at the back of your mind, you're still clinging on to that last strand of hope. and if the worst does happen, i KNOW i will lose it. don't know how i'll lose it, but i WILL. it's scary just thinking of it...........

met yi hui at the bustop today. was just thinking of her and wondering what it'll be like if we met there, and i turned around and saw her. :P LOL. the funny things in life.

yingx, how will u react if i retain?


at 5:55 PM

oh yingx. we're going to hong kong from the 4-9 december. yep. so i won't be able to blog during that time. will take loads of pictures though!

thanks to my laziness throughout the year, and thus my sucky promo results, i can never go through a single day with a piece of mind now. i keep thinking of whether i will or will not retain, and if i do, OH MY GOD I WOULD HAVE TO MAKE FRIENDS ALL OVER AGAIN. DIEEE!!! and the SHAME! OH NO............... i keep thinking of killing myself everytime i think of retaining. but at the same time, i see so many people caring about me and loving me; like ahmui and yenkwun jiejie who are praying for me, louu, all my classmates, kenny who sent me loads of songs to cheer me up, chu xian who called to encourage me and told me to keep my chin up, mingte and other people who tell me retaining is not so easy..........and i know they'll all be in shock and disbelief if i die. and then theres mum and dad: they'll be heartbroken. yingxy......oh gosh yingxy........i duno how my little girl will react, my sis and yangx.......UNCLE KOON MENG!!! man, i think he'll lose it. but i really don't think i can live with the fact of retaining leh. its too surreal. i duno how to describe. its just terrible.

sigh........gota go do my OP speech now. rehearsal tmr. bye then


at 10:07 PM

nothing much happened today. just wanted to blog about something that happened during high tea.

dad brought us to this apparently high class place that A*Mei, that taiwanese singer visited last friday when she was in town. you know, that kind of place where they charge you 8 freaking bucks for an ordinary glass of fruit juice. anyway, i was flipping through the menu and i saw the name of this drink: blowjob. no kidding. so people who want it will say: "hey. can i get a blowjob?" LOL!!! there was another one called "slippery nipple", or something like that. the last word was nipple. weird!! was half expecting "orgasm" or "69" too. HAHA. man. people should really think carefully about what they name their stuff. and on a freaking MENU no less. hel-lo. people are gona EAT here. -_-"'

yes. thats as exciting as my day goes. not like yingx and her romantic escapades. LOL. school tmr. bleh. bye then.


at 8:08 PM

yingx. my average IS about 20/100. i even got below 20 for bio. do u think i'd JOKE about such a thing?!!

the idea of being retained is freaking me out. really. i go through every single day now with a troubled mind.

now i have lost my freaking pencil case!!!! WHERE ON EARTH IS IT?!?!?!?! im pissed like shit.

wow, im blogging about something as random as my pencil case. well done ph.


at 8:40 PM

fucked up promos damn badly.

my average is like 20. yes, upon 100.

and the worst thing is that it's my fault. i didnt study and instead played a whole year. thus i wasted 1 year of my life doing nothing.

now i am on the brink of being retained. yes, RETAINED. means i will have to take alevels with my sis.

i'll take alevels 1 yr later than my friends.

i'll have 3 years of jc instead of 2.

i'll have to adjust to a new class next year. with YOUNGER PPL.

i'd have shamed my entire family tree.

People go for interviews to take H3 subjects while i go for interview to avoid getting retained. what a joke.

FUCK.

my bio teacher told me off for wearing PE shirt after 11am today. BLOODY HELL, FUCK HER MAN. duno why teachers give a fuck about school uniform so much. we're in SCHOOL. no reporters here! they need a life.

maybe i've got too much "life" and thus im in this state.

talked to justin on msn. yes, my little justin and from nyps. he's taller than me now, with a little goatee. i bet he's a got a deep sexy voice and when i see him, i'll fall head over heels for him. shit. he got a bloody solid 2190/2400 for his SATs. SHIT!!! some people are just smart. but what's worse than smart people? DISCIPLINED PEOPLE. something im not, thus my sucky results and the reason im blogging now instead of mugging. justin is super disciplined. he's going to PRINCETON. or rather, he applied and im quite sure he can make it. gosh i cant stand it.

i hate the way im talking now. i sound like one of those loser ah lians. but i cant help it.

yingxy i need u.

im pissed. to the core.

and its all entirely MY FAULT.

joy to the world.


at 9:37 PM

today was open house. naomi were supposed to be tour guiding but we ended up just watching MAD dances instead. the only person i tour guided was, well, sis. LOL. lou came over too. yep, the place was pretty packed with ppl. there was his group of catholic high guys, and omg they were HUGE. they were so big and built is felt so small and scared next to them. haha.

oh gosh, this is one lame post. open house is open house la! whats there to talk about?? dont blog anymore la! seesh.......


at 6:38 PM

yesterday was yen kwun jiejie's wedding.

was about to blog when i opened another window and saw yingxy's email. so errr.....there's no need to blog today. i'll answer you in the email yingx.


at 8:03 PM

didn't really feel like blogging today, but i have no choice cos i have an announcement to make.

HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY YINGXY DARLING!!!!! you know i love you more than life itself and i would give, anything, yes ANYTHING to spend this special day with you. know that i love you so so so much and though i'm halfway round the globe, i'm thinking of you ALWAYS!!! knowing that you've got such good friends at school makes me feel much more comforted. at least i don't have to worry about you being alone. i'll get your mum to bring over you birthday present when she goes over in november. oh yes. you know the goodbye sms you sent me before you went off in november last year? I STILL KEEP IT! :D have a great day sweetheart! *MUACKS!!!*

had the 2nd and last day of sabbaticals today. i decided to do a spanish course, bcos of, well, rafa......aka my baby. :P turns out it was pretty boring. :( man! why do i choose all the sucky courses? the teacher was nice enough, but i wish i spent my 2 days with a bit more..........LIFE. and there was this guy, a friend of my classmate who was SERIOUSLY PISSING ME OFF. he and my 2 other classmates were behaving really childishly and doing stupid, immature actions that i really couldn't understand what was so funny. and they called me mature, and made it sound as if it was a bad thing. dude, if your jokes were at least a teeny bit funny, i might laugh ok. then this guy, the guy i just mentioned, went on about me being mature in this purposely bimbotic voice which he meant to be funny, saying "what's the point of being mature? it's like, so boring, no one likes you, you like never get laid........." and on and on, which i can't really remember cos i was too distracted by that last phrase. i was seriously offended, and was like HUH?! aren't ADULTS the ones who have sex and not kids?! and you mean people WANT to have sex with immature people who flap their arms aimlessly around contributing to noise pollution by cracking lame and senseless jokes?!! i was fuming. AND HE DARED TO ASK ME FOR A SWEET. what the fuck. if he did it one more time, i would have told him off that there is a fine line between being immature and irritating, and he was on the brink of crossing it. luckily he didn't. mind you, he's so short and fat, with teeth so jacked up and stained, YUCK. I PUKE UP MY FOOD BY JUST STARING AT HIM. you tell me someone wants to have sex with HIM?!!! not even if the devil himself puts a knife to my throat. thank god i don't have to see him anymore after today.

yep. that's about it. my friend mingte from my class passed me some jay chou scores that i have been looking for for about forever. i'm so happy! :D at least i know some decent guys. and it's yen kwun jiejie's wedding tmr!! i'm playing the church songs, so i better go practice! bye! :)