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My name is Chair and I rock.
Seventeen candles on the 28th September '09. I ♥ cocktails, cocaine, and clubbing.

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at 9:34 AM

i'm sick! :( i caught the flu from dad. ugh i hate being sick.

my driving is like a sine curve. it alternates between up and down. :(

yingx. i FINALLY got your present yesterday- 2 months late though. -_-''' it's really nice anyway. thanks!

30 more days!


at 5:24 PM

*SLAPS SELF REALLY HARD*

oh geez, lph, you really have to start studying. do you want to repeat the same mistake as last year?? damn it. i seriously hate my lack of discipline.

Sex and the City opens in cinemas tmr i think. i was flipping through the papers and saw it was given a M18 rating. i could feel the smile forming on my face. boy does it feel good to be 18. :) so! who's up for some really good 'Sex' with me? ahahahahahaa!!!!! :P:P:P

i've got driving again tmr!! i'm so excited! i feel that i was born to drive our something. i'm gona work really hard to blow the lousy lady driver stereotype out into the water. driving is really fun. but just very taxing on the eyes.

32 days yingxy!! :D


at 9:19 PM

driving is addictive. it's all i can think about. any obsession is unhealthy. thus, driving=obsession=unhealthy. therefore, driving=unhealthy?!?!?!?!

LOL........ignore me. i'm being stupid. :P


at 11:32 AM

i had my 2nd driving lesson today. OMG IT WAS SOOOOO MUCH FUN!!!! :D:D:D i was so much more relaxed and in much better control. my instructor today was really cool, and very patient with me, and taught me the easier way of starting off by using the clutch instead of the accelerator. DAMN COOL MAN!!!! for my next lesson, i'm going out onto the road!! yippee!!!! please don't let me forget whatever i have learnt today.

manual cars doesn't seem that bad when you get used to it. but i'm sure i'll start cursing and swearing again when i start parking. and parallel parking. oh god, please don't let me inherit skills from aunty allyson. :P:P:P but so far, driving still feels like Daytona to me. my instructor kept laughing everytime i used that analogy.

i can't wait for my next lesson!! :):):)

33 more days yingxy!!! i can't wait to see you again baby girl! :)


at 2:31 PM

MY FIRST DRIVING EXPERIENCE

omg, i swear it is one of the most bizarre experiences ever. when the lesson first started, the instructor started introducing the different car parts to me and all the safety stuff blah blah. and with everything put together, it was much more complicated than i expected. so many things to remember.

then we started moving, with me in the driver's seat!! i was sooooo nervous! and the accelerator and brake are so GOD DAMN SENSITIVE!! just press a teeny weeny bit harder on the accelerator and you're flying. super scary man. and no matter how soft i am on the brake, i always jerk the car too hard. press too soft and i'm in danger of ramming into someone. YINGXY! YOU DIDN'T TELL ME IT WAS THIS HARD!! HMPH!

then i got more than i bargained for when my instructor told me to drive out from the car park and drive a few rounds with the rest of the cars!! i tell you, i was damn scared. i was like, "what?me? now?!?" and he was like, "yeah. have more confidence!" so i went. my leg muscles were so stiff and cramped due to nerves. i didn't feel like myself. instead, it felt like Daytona except that one small mistake could cause an accident. i stalled the engine a couple of times cos i forgot about the clutch, and ended up having a line of 4 cars lining up behind me. so malu man....... and some people just had to cross in front of me at the pedestrain crossing. -_-''' wth, want to die is it?? one wrong move from me and you'll just GG man.

all in all, i think i was too tensed up and nervous. the instructor wasn't kidding when he said this wasn't supposed to be easy. i hope i do better tmr. right now i gota contend with thoughts of the gas pedal, clutch and brake playing in my head for the rest of the day. sigh.....


at 8:19 PM

sometimes, it's not that i don't want to blog. it so happens that whatever i truly want to say is too private to be posted on the net.

i really don't know if it's you or me. am i thinking too much to think that you're purposely distancing yourself from me? if not, then why can't you treat me the way you treat them. how come i'm getting to closer to every other guy except you? at times i really feel like giving up. but then life throws me a curveball which gives me a glimmer of hope, only to be diminished again. i take every opportunity, but we're always at square one, or worse, going backwards.

my first driving lesson tmr!! omg omg omg i can't wait!!!!! aaaaahhhhhhh!!!!! i so, so, sooooo want to start driving the car tmr. please don't spend the 2 hours explaining car parts to me. i KNOW what an accelerator is.

35 more days yingxy baby. you're the only thing that keeps me going. ok, you and the prospect of driving.


at 7:45 PM

you're currently looking at the girl who passed her highway code test!!!! YAHHHOOOOO!!!!!!!!! XDXDXD so, i'm going to start sitting behind the wheel!! aaaahhhhhhh im so excited i can barely contain it! heeee!!!!! i have dreamed and longed for this day for as long as i can remember.

i tell you, the driving school isn't very efficient at all. i had to wait more than like 1.5 hours just to apply for my PDL. it's crazy. people should never say, "we'll attend to you shortly", cos they'll do the opposite and make you wait till the cows come home.

but still, i'm in a pretty good mood. hopefully them cancel chem lecture tmr and i can watch our school basketball finals! i wanna see chong lin and kaiyi play!!!

good lord! it's down to 39 days yingxy! i can't wait!!! :D


at 9:22 PM

I am thoroughly in love with this song by Carrie Underwood. GO CARRIE!! XDXDXD


"All-American Girl"

Since the day they got married
He'd been praying for a little baby boy
Someone he could take fishing
Throw the football and be his pride and joy
He could already see him holding that trophy
Taking his team to state
But when the nurse came in with a little pink blanket
All those big dreams changed


And now, he's wrapped around her finger
She's the center of his whole world
And his heart belongs to that sweet, little, beautiful, wonderful, perfect
All American girl


Sixteen short years later
She was falling for the senior football star
Before you knew it he was dropping passes
Skipping practice just to spend more time with her
The coach said, hey son what's your problem
Tell me have you lost your mind
Daddy said you'll lose your free ride to college
Boy, you better tell her goodbye


But now, he's wrapped around her finger
She's the center of his whole world
And his heart belongs to that sweet, little, beautiful, wonderful, perfect
All American
And when they got married and decided to have one of their own
She said, be honest, tell me what you want
And he said, honey you outta know


A sweet, little, beautiful one just like you
I want a beautiful, wonderful, perfect
All American


Now, he's wrapped around her finger
She's the center of his whole world
And his heart belongs to that sweet, little, beautiful, wonderful, perfect
All American girl
All American girl




I absolutely loves songs like these with unconventional lyrics. Isn't this song sweet? :) it so makes u wanna go "aaawwwwwwww........." haha! :P somehow i feel this song fits yingxy and uncle koon meng perfectly. except you're not american. don't you think so yingx? LOL! 41 more days girl!

there was also this comment posted:
they played this at my friends funeral (she was 17) the night night before she died was prom and her bf asked her to marry him and this was her fav song so they played it everyone started crying and now i cry when i hear it but i love it so i listen to it alot

omg so sad right.....sigh.....


at 8:05 PM

today jelly asked me why i was rather down these few days. and it really surprised me that he noticed. he was only like, the 3rd person to notice and ask me. and i feel so touched, because he showed me he cared. :) it's nice to know that i'm not the only one noticing things all the time.

today was council investiture. im gona miss the 34th council. can't say i'm really psyched up about the 35th yet though.

47 more days yingxy!!! :D


at 5:07 PM

i stuck to hwei ee alot today. from our breakfast at high school in the morning, to gp and chem tutorial, then math lecture. then he, charles and xiaochun gave me a fright by jumping on my back while i was concentrating so hard on chem tutorial. thanks for the heart attack guys. :P

went for coro outing again. i think i've found a place to buy affordable aloe vera gel.

the new ares fac comm really leaves more to be desired. i'll miss bryan and jin yang sooooooooo much!! it seems like it was just yesterday that it was last year's CSM, and both of them just took on their positions. yee kai and jian yang were still around too. they were both standing on chairs cheering us on and i remember vividly bryan telling us to "go for blood." and now today they're stepping down. sigh!! nostalgiaaaa............

i like taking bus 165, cos everytime i'm on it it's not very crowded and i can get a seat. today i took 165 which happened to be a new bus. i could tell by the new plasticky smell of the interior.

now i must go bathe, take a short nap before going for choir concert. bye!


at 9:15 PM

2nd post for today. so rmb to scroll down! :)



photos from one of our friday coro outings. "koped" it from germaine's blog. haha!









from left: germaine, jiachen, jelly, grace, me and liz





me, grace and liz





from left: liz, germaine, me, grace, jelly, jiachen


at 4:33 PM

i really have to try and let go. is it me or are you ignoring me? well ok, not really ignoring. but the way you're going, it's getting pretty close. i hate you for beating me in school, i hate you for hanging out with them, and i hate you for treating me as though i'm invisible. but somehow, i look at you but love you more and more.

i think if i finally rid you from my thoughts and you come back to me, i will laugh myself to death at the irony life is presenting to me.

53 days left yingxy!!!!

JESSE McCARTNEY'S NEW ALBUM OUT ON MAY 20TH!!! AND HIS 1ST SINGLE "LEAVIN'" IS DAMN GOOD!!!! though the video is really......erm.......steamy....... but waddya expect. he IS 21 already....


at 7:30 PM

i seem to be blogging quite often now eh? *glances at calendar* 54 days left yingxy!!

i really quite enjoy reading hwei ee's blog. it's one of the few blogs that type about substantial stuff besides the life the blogger leads. like his latest post about looking at things as through a pensieve. i think it's a superb analogy. i think i do kinda live my life like that sometimes. cos im not the most loquacious person in the world, and most of the time i find myself just observing people. especially *. and i really like drawing parallels to my life from the books or movies i read. sometimes even what people say! i remember mrs yap going through differentiation tutorial one day, and she said that we can't just do (duno what) based on the formula. then she said "somethings only go one way". and that really, really hit home. up till now i'm still taking it all in.


at 9:01 AM

55 days left.

I HATE MYSELF. why why oh why and i so careless? i lost unecessary marks on my chem test, and they're precious marks cos im definately gona get a whole lot of other questions wrong. LPH, HOW ON EARTH CAN NITROGEN HAVE AN EXPANDED OCTET?? ARE YOU RETARDED?!!! IT HAS A FREAKING DATIVE BOND GOD DAMN IT!!!! ARGGHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! im pissed.

meeting yi hui later. hopefully that will cheer me up. hmph.....


at 1:09 PM

geez lou. i don't know if i should be angry about u hacking without permission or happy that you've declared your undying love to the world. seesh! -_-''' fine fine....... im not mad k? :)

56 days till yingxy comes back.

i've got a crave for something savoury. the sunday lifestyle newspaper section is horrible. they're always advertising nice nice food. it's really like dangling a carrot in front of a rabbit man.


at 11:38 PM

(i hacked in.)

I MISS YOU PEIHUA. CANT WAIT TILL CTS ARE OVER SO WE CAN CATCH UP PROPER. ARGGGH. I LOVE YOU!yeap, just wanted the whole world to know that.


YOUR BEST FRIEND.


at 8:21 PM

sometimes i wonder what my life would be like now if i had stuck to acjc. of cos im in hc now and that gives my studies a morale boost, but i feel like im missing out so much on my social life. from primary school to secondary school, i've always had my group of friends to confide in. fine!admit! im a typical cliquish girl through and through. and i always had good friends outside of class. i had good friends last year, until i had to be uprooted and thrown into a different class. now even though i see them everyday, we're so near yet so far. and im only "close" to the people in class. and now, not even everyone. just grace and jelly. this is so different for me. i know a lot of things can happen in 2 years, but as you live it day by day, it's 2 years too long. i don't know what to do! do i force myself to hang out with people i don't really click with or don't hang with them and then bitch about having no friends at the side? i throw up my hands in surrender. i don't know. i give up. i'm at a loss of what to do.

i don't want to look back at my jc life and see that i had not lived it to the fullest. (not cheering for the fac doesn't count) it's so......... ARGH!!! FRUSTRATING!!! everyday i go to school and i find i have nothing to look forward to. even now, i'm already counting down the days till i graduate. term 2 will be over in about 3 weeks (i can live through that) and then june hols, block tests, sabbats, that would prob take up about 2 to 3 weeks of term 3 already. after that it's about 7 to 8 weeks of rushing for promos. 07S72 would probably be mugging really hard for the 'A's already. september break. 2 weeks later it's promos. after that, classmates mug for PW presentation, and im done for the year! dec hols and then the year starts again, and so does hell. damn it. oh yea, yingx comes back on june 29, so i think it'll make my term 3 a tad bit more bearable. i can't bear to think of the time she goes back. sigh......looking at it like this, it looks really fast. but living through it day by day........*groans*

i just realised national day falls on a saturday this year, so no extra day off. WHAT. THE. FUCK.

57 days till yingxy comes back. yes, ive started a countdown.

i think it's weird that much more people come online during weekdays than on weekends. isn't it supposed to be the other way round?

lecture test on monday. so far i have not been achieving my goals of following my timetable and beating * in every test. IT PISSES ME OFF LIKE SHIT.

my longest post in a while. i think im gona have to arrange weekly consultations for bio, math and chem. *sobs* there's no way im seeing andrew tan more than once a week.