firstly, i must really say a huge thank you to yingx and naomi. you two gals have been so immensely helpful and supportive of me joining talentime, i can't tell you how much it means to me. you guys are the best. :)
to yingxy, as usual, you are my rock. no matter what i do, i can always count on you for support and love. i'm so glad i have you in my life. and thanks for asking bern!! darren managed to do it for me. and guess what, i'm not doing that song anymore. -_-''' the teacher didn't think it's good for me. but thanks!! i know how much u had to go through to ask him!!! love u babe. *muacks*
naomi, NO WE ARE NOT SLEEPING TOGETHER, but i love u anyway!!!! :P:P:P erm, colbie caillat is not bad...... you want me to sing bubbly?? but i went for vocal training and the teacher adviced me not to play guitar. cos well.... it's complicated. you need to be really dynamic if you wana play an instrument. and she said that i have a very nice tone, so i need to choose a song that really shows that; a song that brings out the best quality in my voice.
so, the bottom line is i think i have more or less confirmed my song choice!! i'm getting tired of looking around and cracking my head over it. and my teacher said it's a good choice too, so i guess i'm sticking with it. i shall decline to name it here. like i said, if you wana know, go watch the finals!! if i say it both of u will rush onto youtube to hear it immediately. i wana build up the suspense. :P so that it will be a nice (hopefully) pleasant surprise on finals day. :D
xoxo,
you know you love me
Wednesday, February 25, 2009
at 12:19 AM
firstly, naomi you're a sweetheart. :D thanks so much dear. by the way, who is "all of us" coming to support me? :)
singing is really the only thing that keeps me sane in this crazy world. right. i got into a quarrel with my mum again this evening, and that was right before i was scheduled to go for vocal training at the singing school. and once i went into class, all my worries and sadness melted away. :)
ok. worries are still there. i currently have a HUGE headache over what song to sing. i have 2 in mind, but i worry that they may be too big for me. i shall decline to reveal my song choices to anyone. if u wana know, u have to watch me at the finals! :P i originally wanted to sing "The best day" by Taylor Swift. so i sang it today in class and the trainer said it's soothing and nice and all, but it won't win compared to my other competitors. and i DO agree with her wholeheartedly. i'm just choosing a safe song. so i guess it's out of the running. the other people also said that it didn't bring out what i can really do with my voice. which i think it's crap by the way. sigh!! i know sis has heard this story a million times before. but if u think i'm acceptable now, i was even better last time. it just that a couple of years back i had this exceptionally bad sore throat, and from that day onwards my voice was never the same again. i know, it breaks my heart just thinking about it. :(
so as i said, i have 2 songs in mind, and one of them is what i really want to sing. but i have to work REALLY HARD at it, otherwise it would FUCKING SUCK. it really would. i now i have like, less than 3 weeks to make it perfect from the suck fest it is in right now. god damn it!!! apparently the solo vocalists who auditioned for this talentime were really quite good. but they only had 8 spots and i'm really flattered they chose me. i guess i was very close to being booted out. thus, i really wana do a good job!! and i must say that i have CRAZY STRONG competitors ok?? like, they're really siao good. there's this indonesian girl and she's singing some destiny child's song, u know the beyonce kind, and she does it damn well!! not perfect of cos, but good enough to win the competition. i'm usually very cynical about people who claim they can sing though they suck balls, but when i say this girl is good, she IS good. and the boys are not far behind either. argh!! pressure pressure!!! :(((
IF ANYONE HAS ANY SONG SUGGESTIONS, PLEASE FEEL FREE TO TELL ME!!! I'M REALLY CRACKING MY HEAD OVER THIS!!!! REALLY APPRECIATE IT GUYS! :D
xoxo,
you know you love me
Monday, February 23, 2009
at 4:46 PM
right. "Fuck" has never been one of my favourite words. when the drama used it as often as people misuse the word "like", i really was quite affected. but now, i must say that it is my favourite word.
so here goes my rant. FUCK SCHOOL TO HELL AND BEYOND MAN. i won't say "to hell and back" cos i really don't want it to come back to me. today was one of the more hellish days in school. i admit it's mostly the fault of my laziness and incompetence, but heck care. i'm just gona swear and let it all out.
lemme see. PE was probably the highlight of my day. and when I, the most anti-PE person in the world makes a statement like that, it's gona mean something k. we had this 90th anniversary run or something, and each class was supposed to run a total of 90 rounds. -_-''' damn shit ass lame right? i know. yea, so ideally, each class was supposed to sent 15 people to run so that it it adds up to 90 when each person runs 6 rounds, which is basically 2.4km run la. but then, some people claimed to be sick or just ponned PE, so i had to help run. and of course the obvious question is, DOES A PERSON MY SIZE LOOK LIKE I'M FIT TO RUN 2.4KM??!!!! NO. but i still did anyway. and the good news is that i think i finished under 17 mins. credit goes to jia for running with me and supporting me. :) ok, if you're some super fit tracker, u can just stop reading right here cos u won't be able to sympathise man. i know 17 mins is lousy, but considering my size and that i haven't run 2.4km since........last YEAR, applause for me yea? :D
then after that was bio tutorial. which is actually supposed to be a break but my teacher used it for bio lesson. and to make it BETTER, he started the class my reprimanding us for being sloppy and stuff. whoa lao. adults can really be such FUCKING ASSHOLES man. they don't get the fact that if they start a class by scolding, it really leaves the students with a twinge of irritation for the rest of the lesson. at least for me anyway. i tell you, all bio teachers have sticks up their asses. and to make it worse, it's BIG sticks up SMALL assholes. ahaahahaah!!!!!!!! whooooo i think i'm a genius for coming up with that! :P and then my teacher made me copy the answer scheme 3 times cos i forgot to hand in my work. yes yes, it's my fault. i'm not shirking off responsibility. i take my punishment like man. but still, FUCK MY BIO TEACHER MAN!!!! :D
right. so basically bio spoiled my mood for the rest of the day. argh! today's school was really an annoying piece of shit.
so after school, i braved the rain with jelly's half broken umbrella to pick up mum's surprise birthday cake. yes, it's her birthday today yingx. cos it was raining cats and dogs, and i didn't have an umbrella, so i borrowed jelly's which can't even open properly, and when the wind blew it was blown erm, inside out? like u normally see in movies. OH GOD HOW EMBARRASSING!!!! seesh. mum has no right to call me an unfilial daughter after this man.
xoxo,
you know you love me
Thursday, February 19, 2009
at 8:20 PM
i basically cut and pasted this post from the email i sent yingx. and thanks everyone for their well wishes! namely yingx and naomi! :D and to my sis, THANKS.
I GOT INTO MY SCHOOL'S TALENTIME FINALS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! so lou came to my house a few weeks ago, and i performed a song for her on the guitar cos she was really torn up about matters of heart. and she really liked it and said that i should take part in my sch's talentime or smth. but that time, they hadn't announced it yet. cos its a biannual thing apparently. so a few days later, they DID announce, and i didn't really pay much attention. until one night, i don't know why, i just decided to take louisa's advice and join. cos i wanted to do things that are spontaneous. so i thought, will the old pei hua join? no way. so fuck it. i'm joining. so i handed in my form, and yesterday were the auditions!! i was soooo damn nervous i tell u. i wanted to puke. just before i went into the fishtank to sing, one of the organisers was talking to me and telling me all the instructions blah blah. and i was just nodding like an idiot. i was too scared even to speak. and since it was held in the fishtank, means its open for all students to watch. they even put speakers outside so that even if people can't see you, they still can hear you. -_-''' and there was a sizable crowd. i was shaking so bad that i asked to use a mike stand, cos i know my hand would shake if i held the mike. oh. i sang "best in me" by Blue. :) one of yingxy's and my old songs. :) and i was scared that i would forget some lyrics so i wrote them on my hand. :P ahahaa!!! so when i started, the nervousness slowly melted away, and it was over so fast i don't actually rmb anything. hmm....weird.... so today i had an hour break between lessons and i was taking a nap cos i was seriously pooped. then i was awaken by elizabeth calling me, and she was like "Pei Hua, u made it to the talentime finals." and i was like huh?! and then i asked if my yang lu got in too cos i would hate to go alone. and she did so its good. :) so i went to see the board and i was shocked to see only 8 solo vocalists were chosen for the finals. me included. cos i thought there were quite a handfull. one girl whom i thought was quite ok didn't get in. -_-''' hmmm.....right...... so the finals are on march 14. the grand prize is $300, vouchers and a trophy. i must say that i'm up against stiff competition. i mean, they're not BAD singers.......we just have different styles. and its all up to who the judges like more i guess. sigh!
but honestly, from the bottom of my heart, i'm not that concerned about winning. i've just always wanted to join a singing competition and see how far i can go. winning is secondary. but today is really one of the best days of my life. :)
xoxo,
you know you love me
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
at 8:30 PM
i want to go for "Thunder from Down Under"!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i thought it would be pretty cool to go with lou, considering shes turning 19 tmr. AND OMG THE GUYS ARE SO DAMN SMOKING HOT I CAN JUST SHOOT MYSELF AND DIE. i would like, sleep with then in a second. AHAHAAHAHAA!!!!!!! but seriously. they really are gorgeous specimens of the male species. men have Playboy, we have these guys. :) but i don't think my parents would let me go. :( dad is practically a monk, and mum wants me to stay home and study. gosh. male beauty needs to be appreciated man!!!
go check out www.thunderfromdownunder.com. i recommend u keep a box of tissues beside you to wipe up the drool - as i did. :P how can girls be lesbians after seeing these guys?? ITS. NOT. POSSIBLE. as for the gays....... someone take them to see Crazy Horse please. :)
tmr is talentime auditions!!!! fuck, i'm damn nervous. from the moment i handed in my form, my mind has been switching back and forth as to whether or not joining was a huge mistake. when it comes to singing, i'm a perfectionist. when i sing to myself, i'm already so judgemental. what about when i sing in front of others??!! oh noooo...... one wrong note and i'll just throw myself off the cliff or something. :(
i'm gona put the topless guys as my wallpaper. oh, if i had to stand trial for commiting one of the 7 sins, it's gona be LUST man!!! :P:P:P
xoxo,
you know you love me
Saturday, February 14, 2009
at 11:56 PM
today was a very fun day. :)
in the morning i had to go to school for talentime training session. even though it was at 9.30am and i had to wake up at 8am, i didn't mind cos i had so much fun! we sang for these 3 trainers from this performing arts school, (even though it was really impromtu and my voice was shaking like siao) and they gave us comments and stuff. among all the contestants, only another boy and i are singing english songs. and thats bcos he's vietnamese. can't sing chinese. -_-''' bloody hell. the competition is saturated with CPs. but it's fine. i think i only have 2 or 3 people i can call as strong competitors. the rest just suck, or so from i heard.
then i had to rush home for lunch, and then rush back for our 2nd and final night of "Under Pressure"!!! if you saw my facebook status, then you would already know that it was one of the best decisions i've made in my life. :D if this experience has done anything, it has reinforced my decision to pursue theatre in the future in one way or another. it can be in uni, or after i graduate where i just do what i love for a while. on both nights, the audience was awesome. they were all so responsive, and their constant laughter showed how much they enjoyed it. i love the adrenaline rush through my veins, the way my heart beats fast for my first appearance, and how happy and content you feel after you bow during the credits. thats the best thing about theatre. you get instant gratification. for movies, you have to wait till the box office has tabulated all the stats.
right. so i'm exhausted. i'm gona bathe and plonk straight to bed. night peeps! :D
xoxo,
you know you love me
Wednesday, February 11, 2009
at 11:02 PM
i really like this email story my dad sent me. it's one of those spam chain mails, but this story is really sweet. :)
His name was Fleming, and he was a poor Scottish farmer. One day, while trying to make a living for his family, he heard a cry for help coming from a nearby bog. He dropped his tools and ran to the bog.
There, mired to his waist in black muck, was a terrified boy, screaming and struggling to free himself. Farmer Fleming saved the lad from what could have been a slow and terrifying death.
The next day, a fancy carriage pulled up to the Scotsman's sparse surroundings. An elegantly dressed nobleman stepped out and introduced himself as the father of the boy Farmer Fleming had saved.
'I want to repay you,' said the nobleman. 'You saved my son's life.'
'No, I can't accept payment for what I did,' the Scottish farmer replied waving off the offer. At that moment, the farmer's own son came to the door of the family hovel.
'Is that your son?' the nobleman asked.
'Yes,' the farmer replied proudly.
'I'll make you a deal. Let me provide him with the level of education my own son will enjoy If the lad is anything like his father, he'll no doubt grow to be a man we both will be proud of.' And that he did.
Farmer Fleming's son attended the very best schools and in time, graduated from St. Mary's Hospital Medical School in London, and went on to become known throughout the world as the noted Sir Alexander Fleming, the discoverer of Penicillin.
Years afterward, the same nobleman's son who was saved from the bog was stricken with pneumonia.
What saved his life this time? Penicillin.
The name of the nobleman? Lord Randolph Churchill .. His son's name?
Sir Winston Churchill.
xoxo,
you know you love me
Thursday, February 05, 2009
at 10:25 AM
so the website is real. and even then the folks won't hear me out. they just don't want me to go. period. they want me to be as ordinary as ordinary gets. go to uni, graduated, find a job (lawyer/doctor/accountant), get married, have kids, and basically live the life they are living now. but i don't want that. it is the epitome of boring. THEIR LIFE IS A RUT AND THEY DON'T KNOW IT. my dad's idea of a relaxing weekend is to wake up at like, 9am? then wash up and go out for lunch. then go for coffee. then movie. come home and nap. watch tv. dinner, then go to bed. he can do this WEEK AFTER WEEK for the rest of his life and he'll be the happiest man on earth.
mum's life revolve round her kids. not that it's a bad thing. she's the best mum on earth. but i don't want that. my children are going to be one part of my life, but NOT the centre of it. i live for ME.
Hollywood will have to wait for now. but i'll make it there by one way or another.
xoxo,
you know you love me
Sunday, February 01, 2009
at 9:16 PM
Happy CNY everyone. I'm not late cos it's supposed to last 15 days or something right?
right. i've nothing left to say except, WHAT.THE. FUCK. i've just seen the new timetable for school, and i KNEW i couldn't trust those people to IMPROVE my timetable. in fact, they just made it WORSE. last year for jc1, my lessons ended super early, with exception for tuesday bcos of econs. my earliest was 12pm for crying out loud! and now??!! aren't jc2 supposed to end EARLIER so we have more time to study?? NO APPARENTLY NOT. now the earliest i end is freaking 2pm. seriously bloody hell man. oh, thursdays are the best. i have 5.5hours of lesson STRAIGHT. from 10am all the way to 3.30pm. erm, haven't those people heard of something call LUNCH and BRAINDEAD?!! nope. doesn't seem so. in fact, i think they are the ones who are braindead for giving us such a sucky timetable. i know it's inevitable that some days are long, but 5.5 hours man? thats not being very smart right? oh. and thanks for making PE first thing on monday morning. way to go guys.
i just emailed the guy who manages timetables to ask if he can shift things round a bit. i'm prepared for a "i'm sorry we can't. it's fixed. maybe you can talk to your tutors about giving u guys a little break." i'm almost certain it's gona be like that. and if so, FUCK THEM TO HELL MAN. how on earth they're gona be the school of the future when they can't even arrange timetables well is beyond me.
firstly, i must really say a huge thank you to yingx and naomi. you two gals have been so immensely helpful and supportive of me joining talentime, i can't tell you how much it means to me. you guys are the best. :)
to yingxy, as usual, you are my rock. no matter what i do, i can always count on you for support and love. i'm so glad i have you in my life. and thanks for asking bern!! darren managed to do it for me. and guess what, i'm not doing that song anymore. -_-''' the teacher didn't think it's good for me. but thanks!! i know how much u had to go through to ask him!!! love u babe. *muacks*
naomi, NO WE ARE NOT SLEEPING TOGETHER, but i love u anyway!!!! :P:P:P erm, colbie caillat is not bad...... you want me to sing bubbly?? but i went for vocal training and the teacher adviced me not to play guitar. cos well.... it's complicated. you need to be really dynamic if you wana play an instrument. and she said that i have a very nice tone, so i need to choose a song that really shows that; a song that brings out the best quality in my voice.
so, the bottom line is i think i have more or less confirmed my song choice!! i'm getting tired of looking around and cracking my head over it. and my teacher said it's a good choice too, so i guess i'm sticking with it. i shall decline to name it here. like i said, if you wana know, go watch the finals!! if i say it both of u will rush onto youtube to hear it immediately. i wana build up the suspense. :P so that it will be a nice (hopefully) pleasant surprise on finals day. :D
xoxo,
you know you love me
Wednesday, February 25, 2009
at 12:19 AM
firstly, naomi you're a sweetheart. :D thanks so much dear. by the way, who is "all of us" coming to support me? :)
singing is really the only thing that keeps me sane in this crazy world. right. i got into a quarrel with my mum again this evening, and that was right before i was scheduled to go for vocal training at the singing school. and once i went into class, all my worries and sadness melted away. :)
ok. worries are still there. i currently have a HUGE headache over what song to sing. i have 2 in mind, but i worry that they may be too big for me. i shall decline to reveal my song choices to anyone. if u wana know, u have to watch me at the finals! :P i originally wanted to sing "The best day" by Taylor Swift. so i sang it today in class and the trainer said it's soothing and nice and all, but it won't win compared to my other competitors. and i DO agree with her wholeheartedly. i'm just choosing a safe song. so i guess it's out of the running. the other people also said that it didn't bring out what i can really do with my voice. which i think it's crap by the way. sigh!! i know sis has heard this story a million times before. but if u think i'm acceptable now, i was even better last time. it just that a couple of years back i had this exceptionally bad sore throat, and from that day onwards my voice was never the same again. i know, it breaks my heart just thinking about it. :(
so as i said, i have 2 songs in mind, and one of them is what i really want to sing. but i have to work REALLY HARD at it, otherwise it would FUCKING SUCK. it really would. i now i have like, less than 3 weeks to make it perfect from the suck fest it is in right now. god damn it!!! apparently the solo vocalists who auditioned for this talentime were really quite good. but they only had 8 spots and i'm really flattered they chose me. i guess i was very close to being booted out. thus, i really wana do a good job!! and i must say that i have CRAZY STRONG competitors ok?? like, they're really siao good. there's this indonesian girl and she's singing some destiny child's song, u know the beyonce kind, and she does it damn well!! not perfect of cos, but good enough to win the competition. i'm usually very cynical about people who claim they can sing though they suck balls, but when i say this girl is good, she IS good. and the boys are not far behind either. argh!! pressure pressure!!! :(((
IF ANYONE HAS ANY SONG SUGGESTIONS, PLEASE FEEL FREE TO TELL ME!!! I'M REALLY CRACKING MY HEAD OVER THIS!!!! REALLY APPRECIATE IT GUYS! :D
xoxo,
you know you love me
Monday, February 23, 2009
at 4:46 PM
right. "Fuck" has never been one of my favourite words. when the drama used it as often as people misuse the word "like", i really was quite affected. but now, i must say that it is my favourite word.
so here goes my rant. FUCK SCHOOL TO HELL AND BEYOND MAN. i won't say "to hell and back" cos i really don't want it to come back to me. today was one of the more hellish days in school. i admit it's mostly the fault of my laziness and incompetence, but heck care. i'm just gona swear and let it all out.
lemme see. PE was probably the highlight of my day. and when I, the most anti-PE person in the world makes a statement like that, it's gona mean something k. we had this 90th anniversary run or something, and each class was supposed to run a total of 90 rounds. -_-''' damn shit ass lame right? i know. yea, so ideally, each class was supposed to sent 15 people to run so that it it adds up to 90 when each person runs 6 rounds, which is basically 2.4km run la. but then, some people claimed to be sick or just ponned PE, so i had to help run. and of course the obvious question is, DOES A PERSON MY SIZE LOOK LIKE I'M FIT TO RUN 2.4KM??!!!! NO. but i still did anyway. and the good news is that i think i finished under 17 mins. credit goes to jia for running with me and supporting me. :) ok, if you're some super fit tracker, u can just stop reading right here cos u won't be able to sympathise man. i know 17 mins is lousy, but considering my size and that i haven't run 2.4km since........last YEAR, applause for me yea? :D
then after that was bio tutorial. which is actually supposed to be a break but my teacher used it for bio lesson. and to make it BETTER, he started the class my reprimanding us for being sloppy and stuff. whoa lao. adults can really be such FUCKING ASSHOLES man. they don't get the fact that if they start a class by scolding, it really leaves the students with a twinge of irritation for the rest of the lesson. at least for me anyway. i tell you, all bio teachers have sticks up their asses. and to make it worse, it's BIG sticks up SMALL assholes. ahaahahaah!!!!!!!! whooooo i think i'm a genius for coming up with that! :P and then my teacher made me copy the answer scheme 3 times cos i forgot to hand in my work. yes yes, it's my fault. i'm not shirking off responsibility. i take my punishment like man. but still, FUCK MY BIO TEACHER MAN!!!! :D
right. so basically bio spoiled my mood for the rest of the day. argh! today's school was really an annoying piece of shit.
so after school, i braved the rain with jelly's half broken umbrella to pick up mum's surprise birthday cake. yes, it's her birthday today yingx. cos it was raining cats and dogs, and i didn't have an umbrella, so i borrowed jelly's which can't even open properly, and when the wind blew it was blown erm, inside out? like u normally see in movies. OH GOD HOW EMBARRASSING!!!! seesh. mum has no right to call me an unfilial daughter after this man.
xoxo,
you know you love me
Thursday, February 19, 2009
at 8:20 PM
i basically cut and pasted this post from the email i sent yingx. and thanks everyone for their well wishes! namely yingx and naomi! :D and to my sis, THANKS.
I GOT INTO MY SCHOOL'S TALENTIME FINALS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! so lou came to my house a few weeks ago, and i performed a song for her on the guitar cos she was really torn up about matters of heart. and she really liked it and said that i should take part in my sch's talentime or smth. but that time, they hadn't announced it yet. cos its a biannual thing apparently. so a few days later, they DID announce, and i didn't really pay much attention. until one night, i don't know why, i just decided to take louisa's advice and join. cos i wanted to do things that are spontaneous. so i thought, will the old pei hua join? no way. so fuck it. i'm joining. so i handed in my form, and yesterday were the auditions!! i was soooo damn nervous i tell u. i wanted to puke. just before i went into the fishtank to sing, one of the organisers was talking to me and telling me all the instructions blah blah. and i was just nodding like an idiot. i was too scared even to speak. and since it was held in the fishtank, means its open for all students to watch. they even put speakers outside so that even if people can't see you, they still can hear you. -_-''' and there was a sizable crowd. i was shaking so bad that i asked to use a mike stand, cos i know my hand would shake if i held the mike. oh. i sang "best in me" by Blue. :) one of yingxy's and my old songs. :) and i was scared that i would forget some lyrics so i wrote them on my hand. :P ahahaa!!! so when i started, the nervousness slowly melted away, and it was over so fast i don't actually rmb anything. hmm....weird.... so today i had an hour break between lessons and i was taking a nap cos i was seriously pooped. then i was awaken by elizabeth calling me, and she was like "Pei Hua, u made it to the talentime finals." and i was like huh?! and then i asked if my yang lu got in too cos i would hate to go alone. and she did so its good. :) so i went to see the board and i was shocked to see only 8 solo vocalists were chosen for the finals. me included. cos i thought there were quite a handfull. one girl whom i thought was quite ok didn't get in. -_-''' hmmm.....right...... so the finals are on march 14. the grand prize is $300, vouchers and a trophy. i must say that i'm up against stiff competition. i mean, they're not BAD singers.......we just have different styles. and its all up to who the judges like more i guess. sigh!
but honestly, from the bottom of my heart, i'm not that concerned about winning. i've just always wanted to join a singing competition and see how far i can go. winning is secondary. but today is really one of the best days of my life. :)
xoxo,
you know you love me
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
at 8:30 PM
i want to go for "Thunder from Down Under"!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i thought it would be pretty cool to go with lou, considering shes turning 19 tmr. AND OMG THE GUYS ARE SO DAMN SMOKING HOT I CAN JUST SHOOT MYSELF AND DIE. i would like, sleep with then in a second. AHAHAAHAHAA!!!!!!! but seriously. they really are gorgeous specimens of the male species. men have Playboy, we have these guys. :) but i don't think my parents would let me go. :( dad is practically a monk, and mum wants me to stay home and study. gosh. male beauty needs to be appreciated man!!!
go check out www.thunderfromdownunder.com. i recommend u keep a box of tissues beside you to wipe up the drool - as i did. :P how can girls be lesbians after seeing these guys?? ITS. NOT. POSSIBLE. as for the gays....... someone take them to see Crazy Horse please. :)
tmr is talentime auditions!!!! fuck, i'm damn nervous. from the moment i handed in my form, my mind has been switching back and forth as to whether or not joining was a huge mistake. when it comes to singing, i'm a perfectionist. when i sing to myself, i'm already so judgemental. what about when i sing in front of others??!! oh noooo...... one wrong note and i'll just throw myself off the cliff or something. :(
i'm gona put the topless guys as my wallpaper. oh, if i had to stand trial for commiting one of the 7 sins, it's gona be LUST man!!! :P:P:P
xoxo,
you know you love me
Saturday, February 14, 2009
at 11:56 PM
today was a very fun day. :)
in the morning i had to go to school for talentime training session. even though it was at 9.30am and i had to wake up at 8am, i didn't mind cos i had so much fun! we sang for these 3 trainers from this performing arts school, (even though it was really impromtu and my voice was shaking like siao) and they gave us comments and stuff. among all the contestants, only another boy and i are singing english songs. and thats bcos he's vietnamese. can't sing chinese. -_-''' bloody hell. the competition is saturated with CPs. but it's fine. i think i only have 2 or 3 people i can call as strong competitors. the rest just suck, or so from i heard.
then i had to rush home for lunch, and then rush back for our 2nd and final night of "Under Pressure"!!! if you saw my facebook status, then you would already know that it was one of the best decisions i've made in my life. :D if this experience has done anything, it has reinforced my decision to pursue theatre in the future in one way or another. it can be in uni, or after i graduate where i just do what i love for a while. on both nights, the audience was awesome. they were all so responsive, and their constant laughter showed how much they enjoyed it. i love the adrenaline rush through my veins, the way my heart beats fast for my first appearance, and how happy and content you feel after you bow during the credits. thats the best thing about theatre. you get instant gratification. for movies, you have to wait till the box office has tabulated all the stats.
right. so i'm exhausted. i'm gona bathe and plonk straight to bed. night peeps! :D
xoxo,
you know you love me
Wednesday, February 11, 2009
at 11:02 PM
i really like this email story my dad sent me. it's one of those spam chain mails, but this story is really sweet. :)
His name was Fleming, and he was a poor Scottish farmer. One day, while trying to make a living for his family, he heard a cry for help coming from a nearby bog. He dropped his tools and ran to the bog.
There, mired to his waist in black muck, was a terrified boy, screaming and struggling to free himself. Farmer Fleming saved the lad from what could have been a slow and terrifying death.
The next day, a fancy carriage pulled up to the Scotsman's sparse surroundings. An elegantly dressed nobleman stepped out and introduced himself as the father of the boy Farmer Fleming had saved.
'I want to repay you,' said the nobleman. 'You saved my son's life.'
'No, I can't accept payment for what I did,' the Scottish farmer replied waving off the offer. At that moment, the farmer's own son came to the door of the family hovel.
'Is that your son?' the nobleman asked.
'Yes,' the farmer replied proudly.
'I'll make you a deal. Let me provide him with the level of education my own son will enjoy If the lad is anything like his father, he'll no doubt grow to be a man we both will be proud of.' And that he did.
Farmer Fleming's son attended the very best schools and in time, graduated from St. Mary's Hospital Medical School in London, and went on to become known throughout the world as the noted Sir Alexander Fleming, the discoverer of Penicillin.
Years afterward, the same nobleman's son who was saved from the bog was stricken with pneumonia.
What saved his life this time? Penicillin.
The name of the nobleman? Lord Randolph Churchill .. His son's name?
Sir Winston Churchill.
xoxo,
you know you love me
Thursday, February 05, 2009
at 10:25 AM
so the website is real. and even then the folks won't hear me out. they just don't want me to go. period. they want me to be as ordinary as ordinary gets. go to uni, graduated, find a job (lawyer/doctor/accountant), get married, have kids, and basically live the life they are living now. but i don't want that. it is the epitome of boring. THEIR LIFE IS A RUT AND THEY DON'T KNOW IT. my dad's idea of a relaxing weekend is to wake up at like, 9am? then wash up and go out for lunch. then go for coffee. then movie. come home and nap. watch tv. dinner, then go to bed. he can do this WEEK AFTER WEEK for the rest of his life and he'll be the happiest man on earth.
mum's life revolve round her kids. not that it's a bad thing. she's the best mum on earth. but i don't want that. my children are going to be one part of my life, but NOT the centre of it. i live for ME.
Hollywood will have to wait for now. but i'll make it there by one way or another.
xoxo,
you know you love me
Sunday, February 01, 2009
at 9:16 PM
Happy CNY everyone. I'm not late cos it's supposed to last 15 days or something right?
right. i've nothing left to say except, WHAT.THE. FUCK. i've just seen the new timetable for school, and i KNEW i couldn't trust those people to IMPROVE my timetable. in fact, they just made it WORSE. last year for jc1, my lessons ended super early, with exception for tuesday bcos of econs. my earliest was 12pm for crying out loud! and now??!! aren't jc2 supposed to end EARLIER so we have more time to study?? NO APPARENTLY NOT. now the earliest i end is freaking 2pm. seriously bloody hell man. oh, thursdays are the best. i have 5.5hours of lesson STRAIGHT. from 10am all the way to 3.30pm. erm, haven't those people heard of something call LUNCH and BRAINDEAD?!! nope. doesn't seem so. in fact, i think they are the ones who are braindead for giving us such a sucky timetable. i know it's inevitable that some days are long, but 5.5 hours man? thats not being very smart right? oh. and thanks for making PE first thing on monday morning. way to go guys.
i just emailed the guy who manages timetables to ask if he can shift things round a bit. i'm prepared for a "i'm sorry we can't. it's fixed. maybe you can talk to your tutors about giving u guys a little break." i'm almost certain it's gona be like that. and if so, FUCK THEM TO HELL MAN. how on earth they're gona be the school of the future when they can't even arrange timetables well is beyond me.
at 10:45 PM
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