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at 3:47 PM

hey guys!!! i didn't blog after i came home last night cos i wanted to do it properly. last night i was too tired and emotionally drained to do anything else except make use of my bed. :P

right. last night was talentime night!!! it's really weird how time goes by so fast. just yesterday at this time i was practising my song like crazy and shaking with fear. and now it's over. so i didn't win. i'll be lying if i said i wasn't disappointed. cos if i'm good enough to get to the finals, it means that the judges think i have a shot at winning right? well, i gave it my best shot anyway, and i really did try very hard. i have no regrets. and even though it wasn't enough....ahhh well..... this failure won't get me down. i've been through bigger failures than this. i just feel like i've let my parents and friends down a little. hmmm.......

so let me recount my day leading up to my time on stage! and also give u a sneak peek into what was going on inside my head. :P i woke up at 10.30am, cos i was too tired to obey mu alarm clock. so i missed my yoga session. :( nvm. went to the salon at 11.45am to get my hair washed ans straightened and had lunch. they told us to be in school by 1pm but i reached at 1.40pm, and they hadn't started rehearsals yet!!! luckily i wasn't on time man. i would be bored out of my mind. so rehearsals finally started and we watched the band and vocal groups perform, and then i had to go change cos people were really bugging me to change. i wanted to put off wearing my costume till as late as possible. :P finally it was my turn and i did my stuff before going t my vocal teacher's house across the road at 5pm. did some warming up and singing for 45mins or so, then headed back down to school for xiaochun to do my makeup at 6pm. she must have spent an hour or so doing my makeup cos by the time i was done i was receiving phone calls and people were starting to get seated.

when u dread something, time seems to pass extra fast. all the group and band performances seemed to fly by, and as much as i wanted to stand in the wings and watch them, i knew i had to listen to my song for the last few times i could. and i got loads of encouraging smses, especially from jiachen who said i chose a song that jiawei really liked! so even more pressure!! :P then it was intermission, and i really started shaking cos i was the 2nd singer after the break. i tell u, it was the shortest 20 mins of my life. there was a dance number, then waiyee went up. i was on standby in the wings, i had to sit down and close my eyes and breathe. then i started singing to myself. i think i must have looked really weird to the ava people, but when you're gona put yourself out there in front of a huge crowd, you really don't give a shit. I told Preston not to watch and stay in the basement but he of cos went against my orders and watched me anyway. :P finally wai yee ended, the emcees talked crap, and it was my turn. and you know what, seconds before i was due on stage, I FREAKING FORGOT MY FIRST LINE!!!!!! i was like, HOLY FUCK!!! and i literally wanted to ask the ava people, "what's the lyrics? what's my first line?" but of cos i didn't cos that would be retarded. how on earth would they know?? my head was swimming with words and thank god it finally came to me. people were chattering behind me wishing me good luck, but i didn't care and my ears weren't working properly. then the music played and i was on!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i walked out as i sung, and before i reached the centre of the stage i stopped a few times, cos my legs were shaking so bad. and strangely enough, when i reached the centre, all my fears just melted away. i was freer on stage than i have ever been. and also i told myself that i didn't want to walk off after the song knowing that i didn't do my best. so the song proceeded quite smoothly. the audience cheered after the first chorus so that was very encouraging. and then came the tricky part where the song changed key and i went out of tune. -_-''' damn it i think that cost me my trophy. i saw the audience's faces and i was like "oh fuck." but nvm. it went on, i went back into key, and then came my big belt that lasted for 12 counts. and when the cheering started i was supposed to get louder. according to my teacher at least. i hope i did get louder. but anyway. the song was over, the emcees came out, and i sang the chorus of Shayne Ward's "That's my goal" for my supporters, got the judges comments, (Keely Wee said i have a sweet voice and i'm cute. -_-''') i have no idea how to comment on that. thanks i guess?? the lights came on and holy cow the auditorium WAS full!!!! all the way to back no less. and then i was bouncing off stage and i was done!!!!!! everyone congratulaed me back stage, yang lu seemed extra excited, bless her, :) and i tell u, it's the best feeling in the world. i can't describe it. it goes beyond words. i was hugging and blowing kisses to everyone, and people were saying good job, well done. i revel in adrenaline rushes. :D

very soon it was prize presentation, and ahhh well, like i said, i didn't win. i was really shocked when felisa got 1st runner up though. i thought she would win! anyway, it went to Yan Ming, some china guy. but he's good la. i'll give him that. and Mrs Chin specially came over to shake my hand and hug me. :D we've got some ahh..... history you see. first my retaining, then the infamous tshirt project...... so yea..... we're acquainted. haha!! she said she didn't know i could sing so well!! i was really touched man. then the mingling came and i got flowers from my friends, and my banner which is SO NAOMI. :P:P:P zakiyah said she couldn't find nice flowers so she got me cake and chocolate. :D so here's a picture of my well-wishes from friends.


PEI HUA FEELS VERY LOVED!!!!! :D:D:D

right. so here are some personal thank yous:

Louisa: for telling me and encouraging me to do this in the first place. if not for you, i wouldn't even have taken the first step to hand in the form. and of cos for being the most supportive, (and biased and forgetful) best friend ever. :P

My parents: for being my biggests fans and for giving me my voice. I think i inherited my tone from my dad.

YINGXY: for being my rock though you're halfway round the world. i know that if she was here , she'd be picking all those winners apart on my behalf in her indignant tone. :P i love u babe. :D

Naomi, Shiyun, Jacq, Felicia, Anita, Shing: THANK YOU GUYS FOR COMING DOWN!!!!!! and thanks for the banner!!! extra thanks to naomi and shiyun for rallying support for me and of cos, giving encouragements every step along the way. Couldn't have done it without you!!!! :D

08S72: to those who couldn't come down, i still appreciate your well wishes!! eliz told me that the stage is my world that no one can touch. :D jiamin for trying to get the class to go, (though quite unsuccessfully) and jiawei!!! who has been there all the time when i needed cheering up. and of cos gabe who i miss dearly.

Zakiyah: sweetie pie. i think she and jeremy got quite pissed off at each other, but i thank her for her support.

Miaoqun: my ever crazy friend. she always wishes me good morning in her morning smses and tells me to smile. :)

yep. i think that's about it!! i think this experience has cemented my love-hate relationship with the limelight. as much as i shiver and shake and dread the moment i'm due to go on, i love it up there. somehow. haha!!! but this thing's for sure: you haven't seen the last of me. :D

ohhhh!!!! the best thing about the night was when i was outside the audi and these 2 girls, bella and limin or lingmin came up to me to tell me that they liked my voice cos it was very soothing. i was soooooooo touched an flattered!!!! i think it's the biggest reward for a stranger to come up and tell u stuff like this, cos u know they really mean it. it really is better than any trophy in the world. :D:D:D

one last BIG THANK YOU, HUG AND KISS to all my supporters and friends!!! i wouldn't have been able to do this without any of you!!!! i really feel that "ANGELS BROUGHT ME HERE" to you. :D