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My name is Chair and I rock.
Seventeen candles on the 28th September '09. I ♥ cocktails, cocaine, and clubbing.

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at 8:21 PM

sometimes i wonder what my life would be like now if i had stuck to acjc. of cos im in hc now and that gives my studies a morale boost, but i feel like im missing out so much on my social life. from primary school to secondary school, i've always had my group of friends to confide in. fine!admit! im a typical cliquish girl through and through. and i always had good friends outside of class. i had good friends last year, until i had to be uprooted and thrown into a different class. now even though i see them everyday, we're so near yet so far. and im only "close" to the people in class. and now, not even everyone. just grace and jelly. this is so different for me. i know a lot of things can happen in 2 years, but as you live it day by day, it's 2 years too long. i don't know what to do! do i force myself to hang out with people i don't really click with or don't hang with them and then bitch about having no friends at the side? i throw up my hands in surrender. i don't know. i give up. i'm at a loss of what to do.

i don't want to look back at my jc life and see that i had not lived it to the fullest. (not cheering for the fac doesn't count) it's so......... ARGH!!! FRUSTRATING!!! everyday i go to school and i find i have nothing to look forward to. even now, i'm already counting down the days till i graduate. term 2 will be over in about 3 weeks (i can live through that) and then june hols, block tests, sabbats, that would prob take up about 2 to 3 weeks of term 3 already. after that it's about 7 to 8 weeks of rushing for promos. 07S72 would probably be mugging really hard for the 'A's already. september break. 2 weeks later it's promos. after that, classmates mug for PW presentation, and im done for the year! dec hols and then the year starts again, and so does hell. damn it. oh yea, yingx comes back on june 29, so i think it'll make my term 3 a tad bit more bearable. i can't bear to think of the time she goes back. sigh......looking at it like this, it looks really fast. but living through it day by day........*groans*

i just realised national day falls on a saturday this year, so no extra day off. WHAT. THE. FUCK.

57 days till yingxy comes back. yes, ive started a countdown.

i think it's weird that much more people come online during weekdays than on weekends. isn't it supposed to be the other way round?

lecture test on monday. so far i have not been achieving my goals of following my timetable and beating * in every test. IT PISSES ME OFF LIKE SHIT.

my longest post in a while. i think im gona have to arrange weekly consultations for bio, math and chem. *sobs* there's no way im seeing andrew tan more than once a week.