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at 7:19 PM

i dread going to school. the idea of walking through the gates and enduring a full day of lectures gives me a sick feeling in my stomach. i feel so vulnerable there. everytime i leave i sigh in relief. i can't believe i would ever feel like this in hc. i always thought it was my dream school, my dream since primary school. so why don't i feel happy when i got what i finally wanted after working so hard? lou is says hc is the best thing that ever happened to me. but is it true? i don't think so. right now, it feels like a curse. i don't know what i did to deserve what i'm feeling right now. the thing to remember is about a storm is that it will pass. but what is the point of putting a storm in front of me anyway?! i feel cursed.

gona talk to my chinese teacher tmr. hope all goes well. i'm just so emotionally exhausted that it's affecting my studies. i don't have the mood to study, and everyone knows you can't do last minute work for a levels. so technically, i've got to start working hard now. but how can i when i have no heart to do it? i find it such a chore. i dread every single lesson. everyday i go home from school and i'm none the wiser. i feel so stupid and helpless. shit. i think i need my counsellor again. haosheng called today to talk, and even he noticed how dead and depressed i sounded. he said he'll call again to see how i'm doing. :) so touched man.

everytime i see the acjc uniform i'll feel damn sad. COS I WANNA WEAR IT TOO!!! was blog surfing and stumbled across lynette's blog and saw some of her photos. i saw nicole, carol, dawn, cheryl and god knows who else in ac uniform. omg i was damn depressed. i could feel that awful, achy pain in my heart. i wanna go back to ac. i really do. i know i should let it go already cos it's impossible, but it's just so hard. i wanna tell my friends i miss them. but i wonder how on earth i can phrase it without giving the guys any wrong ideas. i see them on msn all the time, but it's a bit retarded to just go, "hey. i miss you." lol. dude, even i'll be weirded out man.

school tmr. oh my god................sometimes i just wish i can go to sleep and never wake up again........









-my guardian angel has forsaken me.....................